Hey so this is my first time writing in this forum. I appologize in advance if this is long but I need to get it out of my chest and someone to read it. I am 19 years old and I moved to Germany after high school (parents are in Mexico) and ever since then I‘ve been having anxiety. First I had vertigo 3 weeks (this was in September) and the doctors didn‘t find a cause, but it eventually stopped. Then I was totally normal until January that I started to feel dizzy all of a sudden, had a migraine like halluciation and panicked because I thought I was going crazy and was going to start hallucinating animals. So ever since that day I started to have physical symptoms of anxiety 24/7 (vertigo, visual disturbances, heart palpitations, hot flushes, head aches, lack of concentration, fatigue, not feeling like i‘m in this world, etc). I started therapy in January and started to be very positive and thinkung I could do it on my own. I seeked help before it got worse but eventually IT GOT WORSE. Now I‘m starting to get depression. I have been having trouble sleeping the past three months and I feel there is no way out. My body is just not cooperating and I try to control my thoughts and do everything but its just not working. I‘m so done with this. I just want to be normal again, I want to be the person I was before but every day I feel like i‘m losing her. Everyday is a struggle and I can‘t continue this way. I love life so much, I have so many plans for the future. I have been accepted to university in the Netherlands. I want to follow my dreams, but I don‘t feel I will be able to do anything with this anxiety. I tried so hard so hard to do this, to not let it control my life, but it came to a point where I just can‘t anymore. I feel like I‘m stuck with this forever and now its 3am and I‘m crying and I don‘t understand what is happening. I want my life back, I want my future to be nice and I don‘t want to have to struggle every day just to get through the day.
I feel your pain..im in the same struggle fighting so hard to find myself...I don't even know what it feels like to be normal anymore...it's so hard that we have to live like this....I hope you'll get over this soon...I've been going to therapy it helps a little....I'm thinking about starting some medication...
I‘m sorry that you‘re going through this too. I would never wish this to anyone in my life. I hope you also get better soon. Have you seen a doctor for a medication? I started escitalopram 5mg 5 days ago. Hope it will work, its my first time trying medication
Hi Ana I am suffering from severe anxiety too and its so debilitating. I have been since I was 14 and it was getting better but some recent events have brought it back. I now am considering going back on meds even though I dont want to. It will improve in time you just need to learn to float through it and distract which is what I have to do. I also get visual disturbances because I have so obsessed with my eyes that every little thing that goes wrong with them causes me anxiety. Talk to a therapist it does help and also talk to others who are going through the same thing. Its good to know that we are not alone in our struggles.
Hey Rydia thank you for relpying. I was wondering, when you took meds did it get better? I've gone to theraphy already and it helps but not much. I just started escitalopram 5mg because I can't deal with the physical symptoms and it is starting to ruin my life. In the internet I read a lot of reviews that med made it worse or didn't help, so I wanted to know if when you took them in the past, did it help ease the physical symptoms of anxiety? Thank you