Hey guys,
I am a 30 year old Male who suffers from anxiety. I’ve always been an overthinker and a constant worrier, however lately I feel like I am getting worse, however I am not sure if that’s the case, or if it’s just the anxiety making me think it.
For maybe the past 2 years or so I’ve been suffering with bad brain fog, I feel like my thoughts aren’t clear and that my memory isn’t as good as it used to be. This brain fog is scaring me as I think this is the beginning of me losing my mind and not being myself anymore.
The best way to describe it is that I feel like I am zoned out 24/7, and that I always feel tired even though I get plenty of sleep each night. Not sure if it’s my imagination or not, but I feel much more zoned out when I am surrounded by bright lights?
A part of me is thinking that maybe there is something wrong with my brain physically, another part of me thinks it’s all anxiety and that I need to find a way to cope with it.
I am very anxious to visit my doctor again as I see him all the time for various different things (Health anxiety) He probably thinks I’m a lunatic..
Could this be depression? as I don’t feel like I have anything to be overly depressed about, I don’t feel sad, I don’t really feel anything, I feel like I just float through life, I feel like I’m going crazy 
The only thing that seems to take the edge off is alcohol and benzos, however I don’t want to end up dependent on those.
Not really sure what I am looking for by posting here, I guess I just wanted to vent and see if anyone else suffers the same, or has hopefully found a way to deal with similar issues.
I just want to get back to my old self who enjoyed each day and could think clearly, each day feels like it gets harder and harder.
Thanks for reading