me the past 4 weeks, AM I DYING?!?!

Mental health
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convinced ive a brain aneurysm or something along them lines. bad headaches (tension, brain zaps, dull ache,) dizziness, bad memory problems, can't focus properly on what anyone's saying. can't even focus on what im saying never mind any one else. all my words get jumbled up. this is making my anxiety mega out of control. 

been to a&e probably 5-6 times in 4 weeks with this, had one ct without contrast, which is useless really because it only shows brain bleeds, not lesions or unruptured aneurysms. so convinced i need an MRI. the doctor referred me to neurology with an urgent flag on it and he consultant downgraded my referral! without even seeing me he decided it wasn't urgent!! the waiting list to see him is 90 weeks!!!!!!!!!

had blood done 3 or 4 times, there all fine too.

ive been jittery and panicked to the maximum at every little thing.

my phones auto brightness changed, making my screen lighter... panic attack right away, thought i was having sight problems.

pills keep getting stuck in my throat the past few weeks to and i could normally swallow three at once no sweat. (i think my anxiety is causing this one) but dunno im no doctor. every time a tablet gets stuck thats me in full-blown panic mode again. my body jumps every time i go to try and sleep. 

just had a nap there now and woke up with a dead right arm. couldn't lift it. must have slept on it funny but had a full-blown panic attack AGAIN. 

now im getting pains in my chest left hand side and im thinking im giving myself a heart attack with how messed up and panicked i am >.< 

ive stopped googling things because they were causing me to have panic attacks.

im having panic episodes like every 20-30 minutes. its insane.

my heart never races tho. always beats slowish well so i think. 

im convinced my body is trying to kill me. that probably sounds so dumb but i genuinly am. im tired again now and ready to fall asleep but afraid because i will more than likely wake freaking out again. or i fear worse. that i won't wake. 

my gp is an idiot, he's so rude and every time i go to see him he says, see you've been to a&e again. like i don't know who to go to for help anymore >.<  i have a daughter and i don't want them thinking i can't manage her because of this. sad i just wanna get the hell better. so i can move on with my life.

atm im doing very very little except laying about in bed because im so messed up.  sad

they said stress caused all this, and yea ive been pretty stressed. but i cant unstress now. >.< tried acupuncture, massages, baths, lavender oil, meditation videos, you name it ive tried it. 

can my heart just give out over all this ? im so scared sad trying to tell myself ive developed health anxiety. 

only in the past 4 weeks have i been like this. before then i hadnt saw a doctor in over a year and a half

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Shannon

Regards your mobile phone, if you use it to much you can get headaches, also they can cause eyestrain if the screen is to bright.

With regards your fears of brain problems, when was the last time you had your eyes checked, you may have eye strain we are supposed to get checked every year or so.

Your GP will most probably feel you are suffering Anxiety, you are a Mam so it must be hard work looking after her

BOB

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Had my eyes checked to rule that put already

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That's good you have cut out Googling, that's a great start. I'm sorry this isn't going away quickly for you. Unfortunately at the level and degree of your anxiety, it's probably going to stay bad for a while before gets any better. You kinda just got to hit that bottom line, and then make a choice. Choose to believe the symptoms and that doubt in your head or choose to accept that your anxiety is making you feel crap right now and instead of giving into the fear, give in to the sensation. Which is hard to explain but like for example when you wake up with a number arm, try to flex is slowly whilst telling yourself out loud what is going on, i.e. I have probably slept funny or my anxiety has caused the muscles by my arm to tense. I'm going to flex my fingers slowly, get the blood pumping. I can understand these thoughts, I can recite my name and address. Therefore I can rationalize that my heart is working and my brain is getting oxygen pumped to it.....repeat this process. For as long as is needed. Even if you're crying, hyperventilating...try taking slow breaths, focus on the the wall, the sounds, the feelings around you. Touch the covers, describe them...do this to bring yourself back into the present.

It might be worth seeing if you can get booked into a mental health rehabilitation center. Somewhere you can stay, with support on site or a program to help you through whilst your daughter stays with family. You may have to pay privately but it could be worth a try.

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My nerves at the back of my head/neck are messed up. Can hardly lift my head up and down.

Anxiety can't be causing this 😣😣😣

I never worry about my health. But since in the past while my anxiety has been away with it

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experiencing headaches of all sort for over 2 years, 24/7.

Contact me

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I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. The mind is a very powerful thing.

I went through anxiety attacks when I was younger believing my mother was going to die because she ate meat when the mad cow disease was going on. I cried EVERY single day for almost 2 months. That was until she took me to speak with a priest at our church. Years later I had convinced myself I was pregnant because I had all the symptoms. I refused to go to the doctor or take home pregnancy test because I was embarrassed. My boyfriend at the time was getting tired of the unsureness of me being pregnant and showed up with a test. I took it and it was negative. I never felt the symptoms after that.

My brain basically told my body I was pregnant and had me feeling nauseous, sleepy, and even urinating often!

What I'm trying to say here is that sometimes it's all in our head and it literally makes our body believe things.

Maybe you should consider speaking with a professional about this. You need the piece of mind and you need to spend your energy on your daughter rather than making up illnesses you don't have. I hate coming out bluntly like this but I come from a family that runs with anxiety and being straight up has allowed us to keep it controlled.

Good luck and I wish you the best!

XX

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I know what you mean but if all tests to date keep coming back negative then the only thing you have to work on whilst you wait for the MRI is your anxiety. There's a small possibility it could be something else causing it, but 100% your anxiety will be amplifying the symptoms and making you feel worse.

I've had anxiety for years but I still got a random bout of symptoms a few years back that I'd never had to that degree before. I was convinced that because my anxiety had never caused them before it was a sign of something horrid. It took a while and I pretty much thought I had heart issues, cancer and some brain issue but still here. Your body is genuinely reacting, and anxiety is, if not the only factor, the biggest player here.

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As an alternative thought, my aunt suffered horrendous migraines, was bed ridden by them when she got them. Ended up seeing a chiropractor who realigned her neck. They went away after that.

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I am going through a similar situation and I am trying to see a neurologist and there are no appointments till October ! You are not alone in feeling this way and I know anxiety can do crazy things but it’s still so hard to deal with. 

I’ve actually decided that I’d rather it be a health issue than anxiety because at least then I can have a more concrete answer other than my own thoughts causing this. That sounds terrible but it’s true  Just know that you are not alone in this 

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Thanks andrea I dunno... I'm never normally one to make up illnesses. This is the first ever time u felt unwell and been so worried & this feeling in my head is dreadful. Like tight tingling it's so horrible an hasn't went away. A week after my daughter took a fertable cunvulsion seziure this all started.

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Gunna deffos ask my doc

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Worth a shot. Good luck!

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Mines so scary I genuinely woukd rather it be anxiety instead of a head issue. Then I can work hard on telling myself ti buck up and move on with life. its the dull ceawling weird feeling at the back of my head. And uncomfortable neck That's getting to me. Eughh xx