I was on Citalapram 40mg for a few years and over the last 6 mths my depression has got worse in that i find it hard to do anything and i have been having lots of self harm and suicide thoughts. I have not slept at night during this time and the anxiety and panic attacks have greatly increased. Over the last 3 week I have weaned off Cotalapram and now my doc has put me on Mirtazapine. I feel like a zombie. I amon day three and yesterday I slept for 14hrs with one break to use the bathroom. I went out for a meal last night and broke down crying my eyes out and had to go home beofe ordering and when talking to anyone after i have been very angry and aggressive afterwards and have also had thoughts of cutting my arms with a knife and soem thought of suicide. I am guessing this is due to the change over of tablets and I am hoping once the Mirtazapine settles into my system this will change, any thoughts?
hi there
dont give up they do work give it a couple of weeks i thought like u but one day woke up and felt nearley normal again ....if u can do when u suffer with this nightmare illness...take your time when u come of them though take it very slow u can get bad reaction when u come of them hand in there.there are thousands of people like us out there i have found.this site helped me very much glad i found it.Try to be strong u will get there
Hi 'Suffering in Silence', thanks to the advice. I am on day 5 now and I still feel completely awful. I keep crying and sleeping loads. I am hanging onto your words that one day I will wake up feeling better etc, so thanks again. 
struggle on it all takes time no miricle cure for us we can support each other no body understands if they havnt suffered with this dreadful illness.will be waiting to hear u feel better.its nice to know someone fels like i did.you will get there.