Hi My name is Frank. And I haven't been eating since 3 days. And deep inside i know it's wrong but I can't force myself enough to make any positive effort.
I have a good job that pays well and i live with my family. I have cars and all. I'm usually a very social guy and people do like me and all. But since many years I had these dark feelings and they just don't go away I act and behave all norma infront of people but yet I'm failed to keep myself happy.
I wanna die thats what only comes to my mind. I have a severe pain in my stomach since one day and I'm at work right now and I don't know what to do. I cry whenever I'm alone.
Can you help me. I can't feel good. I don't want to die but yet it feels like just die and finish everything.
And I'm only 25.
Dear Frank.
I really think that you ned to see your doctor and tell him everything.
Let them help you don't be alone with these feelings.
actually there are no doctors you help you with conditions like that where I live. I had it 3 years ago and i tried to get medical help but no one had any place for that. And i have a feeling that it's coming very strong this time like i stay up all night and only sleep for like 3 or 4 hours while sitting .. I'm scared of myself.
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Ok where do u live
you are in a mh crisis a d need help now you must get it because you are In a bad place drawing a fine line between feeling you ought to to actually doing it
if you have money self refer to the priory
ring the crisis line in your local mh area
talk to the Samaritans and ask for help now they are obliged to help you if you are in that place
tell your family partner who ever because where it seems the best solution to you it devastating to those left behind as they blame themselves
Get a cuppa because if you arnt eating you will be increasing that desire to get out
I expect a positive answer very soon or I must report your threat to kill yourself
let me know I've been where you are
I live in Middle East and i tried my best to help myself and some how i can't help it. I can speak 4 languages and i'm funny and smart but yet I can't help but hate myself. I cannot every satisfy myself and after all these cryings and self harm I want to save myself. Very hard to think positive. The society is a major cause too but I just can't help my negative feelings. Its more like that when it gets night and i get so depressed that i can't move or anything I just sit down in the corner of my room which I keep locked always and then i feel like i'm going to die and thats the last night and i it makes me loose myself when i see my condition 
I feel sad for you, i have been like you from age 28, i do not know why some of us have this inside us, i too have money but i am unhappy, i can,t find that inner peace and happiness. We have to try and fight this thing which i have done for many years. Go to your doctor and get this stomach problem sorted and then at least you will have some peace of mind about it because we always think the worst. I too had investigations and they found my stomach was inflamed, i was not eating at that time and the gastric juices had caused it, i,m ok now. I think we are sensitive people who suffer this anxiety, every little thing that is cruel affects my mind and we are self concious. Hope you sort this out. x
Thanks tho I hope being around positive people helps me.
You know the other thing is that i never show it to anyone and that's y i'm blowing up so hard coz i have kept it inside for so long.
Can you help me to get the idea to die outside my head.
I'm calm a bit but it gets so severe at night .... it feels like possesed or something.
Its always worse at night, especially if you don,t sleep, i hate it getting dark, i sleep sometimes 4 to 6 hours and am awake when its still dark. You are so young and have your life ahead of you, maybe a wife and children. I assure you that you are not going to die, i am still alive and i,m 67. We all put on a front when we meet people, in our mind we are very disturbed. I live outside London but come from Wales. I am saying a silent prayer for you. x
Hi frank sorry to hear that you have been going through this i think you should share this with someone who is close to you or understand you anyway i used to get this kind of feeling when my anxiety started few months ago, i also live in Middle East let me know if you need any help take care
Ann I hope that you do not mind me making comment to you.
I am unable to sleep for anymore that 3/4 hours at the moment which is very distressing. I have been having extremes of anxiety for 2 months and getting very tired.
I agree with you that everything seems so much worse when it is nighttime and dark.
Yeah your'e right, i know this but still it's not helping I try to read and study as much as i can so i can help myself but it's not helping. I do gett better for the moment but the effecivness of that goes away and i'm here so i can take out everything i have so it might feel better. And thanks, i need prayers so bad. I wish i could make peace with myself. I used to love myself a lot. I don't stay alone coz whenever i'm alone i get so scared of myself that i will harm myself. I feel like someone has gotten control of myself.
I wish i could share. I have a great reputation here and I can't act that way infront on anyone and the second thing is that i don't think someone will take it serious over here and it will be a rumor very soon and every one will b making fun of it so that's y i keep it to myself.
And i'm constantly thinking about killing myself .... 
Don't worry you will be awl right i know it's really hard to share someone who never been thru this anyway where are u in the middle east ?
Ohh oki i live in dubai, just add me on whatsapp if you need any help or share anything +971502628975
Shows that this disease is worldwide no ones immune
Hi
use the samaritabs email where u can put down your anxiety and let it flow sometimes even that helps
been there and further did it solve anything no Frank it plunged me deeper deeper as now I had failed even more things my family friends work etc
if you are that unhappy why stay where you are , have a holiday
get rid of what ever it is that's causing the problems
I had to learn many things and change my life and I'm still learning
Hello Christine, i came off citalopram in november 2013, i had been on it for 7 years, it helped me sleep and gave me some sort of normal life, i wished i,d stayed on the low dose of 10mg now, the side effects of going back on it is putting me off, after 4 to 6 weeks you start to feel better, it was for my anxiety, it helped but it didn,t take it away completely. Maybe you should see your doctor and take something for this anxiety, people can,t see what we are going through, its an illness and i wish people would appreciate that. My mind is racing at night and i just cannot switch it off,I live alone and i hate the nights.
Dear Frank, if we were able to get rid of these feelings we would, i try to take my mind off them buy keeping my mind occupies, i read, sew, walk, but its always there lurking in the back of my mind. consult your doctor about taking something for your anxiety, we need help with our problem, i,m thinking of going back on my anxiety drug, its just my age that i worry about now, all drugs have some side effects, every day is a challenge. Are you on facebook, i,m ANN MCKINNON. Romford London
Hi Ann how lovely to hear from you.
I am on Citalopram but this does not help me sleep.
I would love things to return to normal as I am sure we would all like to happen.
The nights are long and dark.
I see you live in the UK. like me.