Morning are the worst I've been having difficulties in the morning I've been feeling like this since new years day I have crying burst here and there I'm on cutoptalam 10 mg I go to therapy I am so scares I went through this 13 years ago i was put it on 4 medications diagnosed with clinical depression they told me I wouldn't have to take medication forever so I no longer did and I got better by keeping busy I am so scares I don't want to turn like this again please help!! I see people smiling and laughing and I get sad because I can't I have a great boyfriend great family I'm moving in with my boyfriend soon I don't understand why?!?!?
I'm going to the gym now gonna try to workout for an hour sweet Jesus please please let me get better please!!!!
Hope the gym helps x
Hi Lucy I am so glad that you wrote in to us! Can I ask you when this started what happened what event triggered this? You were fine until New Year's Day. What happened on New Year's Day?? Diane.
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I see my boyfriend on weekends been with him for 2 years I usually drink wine when I see him I was realizing I liked to drink wine every night maybe 1- 2 glasses well he said to me are you ok I automatically thought of my dad and brother they ate alcoholics! But before then I had a really bad meeting with my big boss who degraded me I cried when I left but then next day I was fine couple days later on new years day when my boyfriend mentioned that to me i got very scared thinking I'm turning into an alcoholic! I got scared very scared so I don't know ever since that night I'm not the same then i keep getting anxiety that I'm gonna get sick like I did 13 years ago but part of me still holds o n and fights the fight! I want to smile again right now im.at gym on treadmill I'm ok right now but sometimes I get the anxiety feelings knot in my stomache
Hi again Lucy. I think it was traumatizing 13 years ago when you had such a bad bout with depression and the incident with your boss and your bf mentioning your drinking hit something and you panicked about becoming an alcoholic (probably a long time fear) and your boss threatened your livlihood.
It seems when you said the next day I was fine after the boss degraded you..you stuffed it but emotions don't go away. They came back in the form of panic fear crying jags. Does this make sense? Diane
Wow! You hit on the head are gonna therapist? If not you should be thank you so much. I worked out this morning for 1 hour so I'm ok right now but when I think of future like when I think of tomorrow morning o start to panic thinking omg I am gonna get that feeling afain sadness how do I work on that . Diane thank you so much really
Lucy no thanks necessary. Diane
Hugs to you Lucy xx
Did somebody say or do something to hurt you? You may need to take something to stop the crying jags so that you can see and think straight. I know what the crying jags are like. It is painful. Something has brought this on. Did anything traumatic happen? A shock? Bad news ? Try to think deep down.
Ever since on new years night I was drinking wine 2 glasses and I was starting too for couple of nights my 2nd asked if I was ok and I automatically thought why am I drinking when I am here over my 2nd home why then I started looking up alcoholic online and I thought I was becoming one and what am I gonna do blah blah blah etc.
So is it the drinking 2 glasses of wine a night that is causing this emotional pain? Have you seen a dr for their opinion? I have a terrible time sleeping and my dr told me to drink some wine but alcohol keeps me awake so they gave me sleeping pills. I don’t know if 2 glasses of a wine a night is so bad. I would get a professional opinion. Just for peace of mind.
Hi Lucy, yiu seem to have classic signs of depression, especially when yiu say mornings are the worst, and because you have been through it before it’s scaring you so deeply, depression it self along with panic disorder can be traumatic experience. I’ve been through it 2 years ago and I thought ide never survive, looking around at people just going about life so normally was heart breaking for me, I knew I was like them but now I was paralysed in a body and mind that I had no idea how to deal with it.
I personally think it’s the worst illness ever.
There is something about the blood sugar being low in the mornings that’s why the depression is at its worst, apparently bananas really help, didn’t do much for me , but what did help was if I woke up by an alarm clock and not naturally. Your going to be ok Hun I promise you, and I can tell that you are a fighter, as you are going to the gym trying to fight it. You may need some meds to help you too, but don’t forget meds make you feel worse at the beginning before getting better.
I’m sertraline and they save my life literally.
Please keep talking to us in here.
Big hugs to you my dear. Xxx
Wow! Thank you i know I'm a fighter but sometimes it's so hard to fight o have good things in my life a great great boyfriend and I don't want to lose him great family I'm determined to fight this little by little keeping busy they say is #1 to do. I'm on cutoptalam 0mg just stated 4 days ago too I see therapist t oo
How are you all managing to see therapist so quickly? Iv been told there is a 9week waiting list to get an initial consultation
Keep calling therapists. The meds should get you through until you can get an appointment
I live in the uk xx
Does that mean that you are unable to call other therapists? Do you have insurance being that you live in the UK? I’m in the US. I am on disability social security and they provide insurance but I have to pay for it
We don’t have insurance we have he Nhs x
But do you have some type of coverage that pays for part of medical and prescription ? If so is it limited to who you can see for help?