Hi everyone wondered if I could have some advise. Last 3 months of last year I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression. It had a impact on my new relationship at that point. We broke up and he visited me at work to see if I was ok we he said I should drop him a call to have a catch up... That was 3 months ago 
. I feel terrible as I needed my own space and didn't want him to see me still sick I haven't contacted him but I am planning to as I'm a lot better (I have my job back new mind set etc) but I'm so worried he thinks I'm just mean or faking it? I've been sharing my positive moments with friends online and I'm just scared he's thinking what a massive liar she looks like she's loving life (obviously he does not see the sleepless nights, me constantly joting down my feelings the meds etc)but that's not the case I was really down the lowest I have ever felt depression is the most terrifying experience I have ever witnessed the feeling of pure darkness is something I would never wish on anyone. I want to call him but I'm terrified of his reaction ...has anyone had this?
Kelly how old are you and are you on meds I also have anxiety
Did you ever tell him how you truly feel? Just tell him your feelings. If he wants to check up on you, something tells me he still cares. Don't second guess him. Ask him how he feels as well. I also have anxiety and depression and I think the key thing to maintaining relationships of any kind is to communicate. It's what's keeping my boyfriend and I together. No ones hated me for telling them how I truly felt and they were happy that I was willing to discuss things with them and they were happy to set me straight. My boyfriend, even with him having aspergers, has been very good and very patient with me. I can talk to him about anything because I know that if there's one thing worthwhile, it's happiness, and if you don't talk about your troubles or misconceptions with someone, all it will do is explode because you misunderstood something. If you're unsure about anything with anyone, even if it may sometimes seem rude, ask about it. A person who asks questions is a fool for five minutes but a person who doesn't is a fool forever. I really love my boyfriend and even when I invision a bad outcome for asking him about something, I still do it anyway, because I can't be happy if I don't voice my concerns or straighten out some kind of misconception. So far, we've been happy together. Keep your chin up, be open, and be honest. Call him. You can't go wrong with honesty. Tell him your insecurities.
And also... I nearly lost mine because the same thing happened. I finally just told him everything and he was understanding. I told him my insecurity and he still stayed with me. Bottom line: don't second guess anyone and if you do, ask them. Questions never hurt. I honestly think he still cares because he wanted to check up on you. You may have missed a chance.