My anxiety has me on the verge of being arrested.

Mental health
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Hello, I am battling a very bad point in my life. I broke up with my EX fiance and 3 months after that. I met a male friend and we had unprotected sex. He used pull out. This man was in a realationship. My low self esteem and my depression lead me to sleep with this man. 2 weeks later I was diagnosed with Trich which is a STI. Him and his gf both went to be tested and both were positive for Trich. She told me she has tested negative for all other and he said the same. I am not sure if I can believe him when he lied about having Trich. He did tell me that he did not know he had it until he was tested for it but I can't believe him. Here I am today trying to get over being infected with a parasite and possibly HIV. I am frozen in fear to take a test. I have picked out all of my eyebrows and the from part of my hair in the front. When I found out I had Trich, I cried for 3 days and I just recently told my mom about it and she held me in her arms.

I am so smart and knew better than to do what I done. I negative for all other sti and got a Normal pap today. I just haven't test for HIV yet. I am scared too death and often have thoughts of suicide.

I also had a dream about HIV and immediately woke up with a horrible anxiety attack. I had loose stool and shortness of breath.

I texted the guy who I slept with and he told me he has tested and if I do not leave him alone he will call the cops. I constantly message him for the truth and I will not stop

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i think its so sweet that your mom held you in her arms. take comfort in that. mine would have slapped me across the face. you are lucky to have someone kind and understanding with you during this stressful time. good luck, just hang in there

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You need to leave that guy alone. He has no purpose in your life. 

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Hi Celeste, I can only suggest you pluck up the courage to get tested to put your mind at rest, this guy isn't going to reply to you. It's going to be difficult for you but it's consuming you if your having suicidal thoughts.

My guess is you'll be HIV negative so go ahead and have the test

Neil 

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Wow thanks. His GF told me that she tested negative for HIV and they both had Trich.

I am so afraid and do not have the courage. Just the thought of someone given me a parasite has me also thinking that they could if given me a virus.

I have pluck out half of the edges around my hair and he's going to call the police on me because I constantly ask him about the test. I feel like my life is over.