i have been with my boyfriend for two years and it's been nothing but amazing. He is so good to me and makes me the happiest person ever and cares for me so much and i have felt the same too. But ever since this pandemic, my anxiety has been exposed. I hadn't been able to see my boyfriend and when i did see him i vomited. I have no idea why and it happens every time i see him but after a while of staying with him i feel much better. We decided to take a break from our relationship for about 3 weeks so i can focus on my mental health and learn how to be independent and figure out what i want. He is also doing the same. It has almost been 3 weeks now and during our break i can't figure out what i want, my anxiety is not letting me feel anything, i have tried to go through pictures of my boyfriend and i to trigger how i felt then but it's like i can't remember how i felt and it's so frustrating. I keep having irrational thoughts about whether i am in love or not any more. I don't want to lose my boyfriend, he means so much to me, i just need advice and am curious as to whether people have experienced this too and what have they done to make it all work out.
anxiety can make us question things. But you can ask yourself some questions to get some clarity. such as do we fight a lot? Do you dream about being single? Do you want to make plans without him? are you with him because you are just bored or feel like you can’t do any better?
Also, remember things like how he treats you, is he a giver and not just a taker? think how the both of you communicate, etc.
does he always have your best interest in mind? These last few are extremely important in a relationship!
not All relationships are meant to last forever. Some are better off as friends. that doesn’t mean the relationship was a failure, it just means some people are just better as friends.
But keep in mind also that it can be very difficult to find someone who is a genuinely great person. One that is honest, caring, hard worker. And of course you always have to have that connection with somebody. something has to click. not how good looking somebody is because that will fade over time. It Has to be a true connection. like you really enjoy being together and talking, you enjoy doing things together and you feel really comfortable in his presence. It’s kind of a feeling of like being at home. does he give you an “at home” feeling?
i’m not sure how old you are but I wish I had found somebody like that because if I did now, I would never let him go!
so do some soul-searching. Anxiety won’t get in the way if you answer the questions honestly. 
Hi Jan34534,
Thank you for your message I really appreciate it.
we don’t fight ever and i don’t imagine being single or with anyone else other than him. He is so good to me, we are both so transparent towards each other, we communicate our thoughts and feelings which is why we don’t ever argue. We have always enjoyed each others company and i have loved spending every minute with him as we’re in a long distance relationship so every time we saw each other, we would be so so excited. Our connection is so strong especially for us to be each others first gf / bf.
I am 20 and he’s turning 23, i know we are both very young and we have a lot to look forward to in life, but i want to do that all with him.
I am certain with my answers however i don’t know why i’ve been feeling the way i’ve felt in my post you replied to, it’s so difficult to just ignore those irrational thoughts but i guess i have to do some soul-searching because i haven’t tried that out. I keep linking this to my anxiety as its generally really bad.
by what you wrote, it sounds like you have a really wonderful connection together. That is really hard to find these days! One thing that can happen in any relationship is after a while it can lose that initial spark or fireworks, if you know what I mean. But that happens in every relationship. It doesn’t mean it’s wrong, it’s just natural.not sure if that’s part of it but just know that it’s very normal.
when people are married they can still be attracted to each other but more importantly is
how you treat each other , if you both are giving 100%, and how you communicate and work out issues., and that is something that lasts a lifetime!The more time you spend with him, the more you will know how you feel. Like you said, you are young and you have a lot of time to figure this out. at some point in every relationship, a decision will be made one way or the other. It’s just natural.