My anxiety story

Mental health
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I've always been a worrier, but I think it got worst after I had my first child. I started experiencing R lower abdominal pain all the time. It was in 2007. That's how it started. They sent me for a CT scan twice (abdomen and pelvic), gastroscopy, Ultrasounds, etc. You name it!!! Lots of tests and nothing......It was getting worst at times, and then better and then worst again....At that time I didn't even think that I might suffer from Anxiety. At the same time my grandparents which I loved tremendously, both died from cancer and  I started having this constant thoughts of maybe having a cancer, maybe the doctors are missing something…..My thinking pattern is: “What if……? What if they miss something? What if they are wrong?” Because I am REALLY experiencing physical symptoms!!! They are not in my imagination….Then I had my son in 2009 and soon after that the daily headaches started. All the time-constant pressure in my head…It's funny, but when the headaches started, the R abdomen pain dissapeared.  Then they sent me for tests again-Brain MRI’s, Neck MRI, CT, etc. They officially diagnosed me with Migraines/Tension headaches. It’s been a couple of years now. Then recently, just a few months ago, my R pain returned-but GREAT-now I feel it in my abdominal area and also in my lower back area on the right side…And they sent me for colonoscopy, because the GI-doctor can feel/palpate a fullness in the R side of my abdomen. And then still nothing….They said it could be IBS, it could be back pain..... I am soooo, soooo frustrated. Sometimes I want to scream…I don’t have anybody to share all this with….The people would not understand…..Deep inside, I am sure that my way of thinking/worrying constantly, have a huge impact/part in all of the symptoms I am experiencing and in the way I feel…..But could the anxiety be so powerful and to create all these symptoms???? I am so sick of tests…..After a certain test, I have a reassurance for awhile, and then a new symptom will arise sad(… I notice every pain, lump, intestinal/ back pain, rash, etc. I feel that I am in a vicious circle for years!!! I am worrying all the time.

That affects my marriage, even though I am trying so hard to not overwhelm my husband with my problems…All this affects my relationships too…I used to be very open to people and with the years, I just don’t want to meet with people anymore…..The symptoms I experience put me down all the time and I just prefer to stay home…I realize my thoughts are irrational, but I just can't stop them....Please help!!

 

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Hi Diana,

I am going through the same hard time like you said, I am managing my self with loads of spiritual activities as Islam preaches us. When I do that I feel really better. But some of this physical symptoms causing me a real difficulty. I do pray for you and please remind me also in your prayers

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Thank you!!! I sure will.

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Hi

I'm going through something similar at the moment. My anxiety started with a headache and palpitations back in 2010 just after I had my baby. It probably was really bad for about a year and half until I started seeing a little bit of improvement. I went to the doctors after 6 weeks of the most awful agonising headache to the pain I could barely walk around. I was adiment it was a Tumor. I went hospital and that's where a doctor said she things ice for postnatal depression. I didn't believe it and though. I thought she just couldn't be bothered. After that it seemed to just get better on its own to the point one day I actually thought I feel so much better.

Howeve, since having my 2nd baby I was struggling with constipation and after a while I obviously started searching and worring. However not to the point it was affecting my daily life. I got sent to a gynaecologist who looked at my cervix and it all looked fine. I had a scan it came back clear. Tummy felt, internal (both ends m) all seem normal. It reassured me for maybe cervical cancer etc. But it's always been in the back of my head that they haven't really listen and I'm struggling with my belly. I was given laxitives which used to relieve my discomfort until I stopped taking them and it'll go back again. Over the past 6 weeks I've been visibly bloated on and off. Then over the past few days I've had a weird, pain in my stomach constantly. on Thursday it was a bad pain under my ribs. However today it just feels like I'm bloated but I don't look it. I'm feeling every going on in my stomach, every pop, grumble you name it. It's really put me down and the pain is in my head from the second I wake up till the moment I go sleep. I'm booked in today with the doctor hoping to be sent for tests. I also have back pain but it's jsut in the centre.