Hi guys,
My name is Tyler. On Sunday, I got asked about something I did which caused me pain (took something that wasnt mine). I immediately got a pit in my stomach and avoided the situation for two days, eventually the person asked again and I admitted to everything on Wednesday and took care of the issue and went our seperate ways.
Ever since Sunday though, I haven't had an appetite. I haven't been able to go to work. Some reason, that event made me so weak and made my mind run wild. I thought taking caring of the issue would help, and it did a little but it hasn't gone away yet.
I have a pit in my stomach that worries me, then I worry about every little thing in my past and it makes me feel like the only way to get rid of this feeling is to talk about those things.. so I did and it still didn't help.. and I just think of more negative things.
Note, this is my first time this has ever happened but I dealt with a similar feeling for 2 weeks when I was in 7th grade. A girl called me gay, and I tried to not believe it but my mind was foricing me to think negative. I don't remember what I did to not feel like this anymore.
My biggest worry now is getting rid of the feeling. I feel as though its causing me to think about things in my past that are completely irrelevant but my mind is making them feel like "Oh you better tell someone or you'll never get rid of this feeling". The feeling I'm refering to is the constant mind running and that "pit" in your stomach and the loss of appetite. I've been forcing myself to eat.. but I'm lost right now. I feel as though I should be OKAY now, and never having dealt with anxiety or anything similar to this for a VERY long time is starting to really bother me. It's making me feel like I need to be in a mental hospital. I know its only been 2 days since the issue was handled.. and there is no repercussions but for some reason it made my brain think of everything negative and unable to get rid of this "pit".
I'd really appreciate some advice on what to do. Do I need to go into the ER? I do believe this will pass but I'm scared that it will drive me insane before it does. I don't want to hurt myself or think about suicide but I feel as though if I lost my job over this or something.. i'd be even worse.
I firmly believe that I'm just "scared" of everything. I'm scared to go to work because I don't want to break down.. even though I know it'll probably be good for me.
Help guys.
Hi Tyler, well done for fessing up! Your now fixated on your anxiety symptoms which in turn makes you anxious, your not going to go insane or need ER, your right it will pass.
Do try to go to work, if you feel like you need to "breakdown", go to the toilets or somewhere quiet for a bit, work will be a distraction.
Your a very sensitive person by the sounds of it and maybe guilt has triggered the symptoms, the thing to do is just carry on with your life and let it go, if your struggling go and see your GP who will be able to help.
The thinking about things you've gone in the past and thinking you have to tell so robe or it won't go away is something I've struggled with with my anxiety and depression but it does go.
Dont worry, at least your not hiding anything now.
Neil
Hiya , how did you manage anxiety caused by quilt ? Please any tips
Ive just come back from CBT , I do have anxiety cause quilt. She told me that we all human and we make mistakes. We cant changed what happened but we may learn from it and become better person than we were before. Cant live in the past. People make mistakes but it doesnt mean they have to pay for it for the rest of their life.
Hi, I just had to accept the anxiety until it went, I was taking anti depressants which helped. Neil
Ad made everything worse with me. I was scared of my own shadow and even more anxious. Now Im off them I feel like I can think clear.
Hey Tyler
Check that out with your GP. Have you been eating well? Don't overeat. Stay hydrated. Eat throughout the day. Some people with Anxiety suffer from GERD, Gastritis, Acid Reflux, Heartburn. It maybe one of these things.
Good Luck
Wanted to give a general update.
I've been feeling better. Not great, but better. I was expecting the feeling to leave after I handled everything but I still had break downs and it still bothers me from time to time. I reached out to a therapist about talking (which I'm doing today). I also went to my normal doctor and she prescribed me .5 MG of Xanax (6 of them) on Saturday. I have one left, and yesterday was my first day where I could handle work + the day WITHOUT taking any pill. I felt great at times, but other times I still struggled.
My therapist thinks it is what they call "Little T Trauma" and it makes perfect sense that it is. I'm a little nervous about my session with her, but I really hope it helps. It's weird... I go home and play video games and I feel fine and I almost feel like I'm WAY better and that it is over.. but then I get into bed at night and I watch TV and I start to think a little to much which causes me a little anxiety. I've had dreams relating to the issue and when I wake up.. that's probably when I'm at my worst.
I still haven't had a SOLID bowel movement since it has happened but I am able to eat a normal meal (although it instantly bloats me and causes my stomach pain).
I appreciate all comments, and I still appreciate insights.