I'm 20yr old female, to make the loooong story short. I was pregnant, developed preeclampsia.. went really bad, had a c - section, and then after my c section I hemorrhaged. Scariest thing in my life. I kept telling the nurse I felt something and then boom I felt A LOT and began yelling frantically that I felt something (I couldn't move as I was numb) a lot of things happened with my 10 day hospital stay. I was on magnesium drip for days couldn't move, was stressed and scared. Anyway a month after giving birth (I had the normal anxiety that I could cope with most of my teen years and mild panic attacks) but a month after giving birth I would wake up scared and feeling like I was hemorrhaging again apart from being traumatized from that, one day I was out at dinner with my fiancé and I had this TERRIBLE headache all day and I googled post partum migraines and it said I should rule out everything as in low blood sugar, high blood pressure etc so I checked my blood pressure and it was through the roof. So I ran to the ER where they put me on tablets for it, the tablets made me SO sick I didn't eat for a week and then i saw the side effect paper for them and started having excessive amounts of panic attacks I cried all day I couldn't enjoy my child. Mind you through that whole week I went to the ER at least 8 times. They knew me by name there, I had 2 ekgs, lots of blood work, urine, the whole nine. I had pain in my left arm and went to urgent care instead of emergency room and they sent me straight to the ER saying I had a blood clot from my c section. ER gave me the clear and said I had muscle strains. Eventually had my BP meds changed and those scared me bc of the side effects as well but I had to take them, so I did and about 6 days later my throats felt weird and I had to tell myself it was all in my head till I finally gave in and went to the drs and apparently I was allergic to the medicine. So now I'm on a new one that's ok but I still have panic attacks after I take it most days. Anyway I purchased a Fitbit to get my health better and then I got crazy with constantly checking my pulse. In a week I raised my own pulse by 20 beats at rest... so I got rid of it. I also check my blood pressure 5-6 times a day and I check it 7-8 times at once until I get a reading that makes me feel okay. I'm absolutely tired ... I feel so out of control ... sometimes I think I'm having kidney failure so I drink tons of water (more than normal) and I pee for hours just to ease my brain. Right now my thing is my heart. I feel my whole left chest with spasms of pain... and also my shoulder. I continuously scare myself. I almost went to the ER tonight for it but everyone is tired of me going to the hospital and I'm embarrassed. I also developed OCD about certain things. I have to do things a certain way or I feel like something is going to happen to me. I was never religious but at these low points all I do is beg god to make it stop.. I don't lave my house I don't eat anything unhealthy in fear of harming my body.. im also worried about my thyroid at the moment which is new but now it's a worry. I just feel better when I read other people's stories about their health anxiety. I know most of it is in my head but my head is also telling me what if it's not this time????? And that thought always comes back to haunt me. I just want to enjoy my daughter to the fullest and be my happy self again.
Hello Pamela
When giving birth you went through a horrific experience, also you have had problems with your medications. Although no I do not understand if you are still having problems and medications associated with the birth.
Is the Anxiety still a problem related from the birth or do you feel your body has become sensitized to what has gone before. If this is the case you need to be able to talk out your fears and associated Anxiety. Your GP should be able to arrange some CBT to talk out the problems of a difficult birth and help you move on. Hopefully after that you will be able to approach the Anxiety and work out a way to move on.
Make an appointment a double session, make a list what you need to achieve to move on
BOB
I don't really know if the anxiety is related to the birth, I just know that I've never felt this wrapped up in anxiety and stress before. All my neck and shoulder muscles hurt from how tense I am most of the day. I cry a lot bc I'm just so tired of feeling out of control. It's been a really hard time for me and my insurance doesn't cover therapy, just a psychiatrist who doesn't show much interest. I refuse to take more pills ... taking pills gives me more anxiety. I just know that I have to take my blood pressure ones..