I have been struggling with depression and ptsd for years now. About 5 yeas ago my abusive ex raped me and infected me with HSV 2. Since then I havent fully recovered and experience triggers that cause me distress. When i met my new partner, I disclosed this information with him and he decided he was ok with the risk. Our relationship has been very rocky lately because of my depression and lack of trust in men. Im not happy and sometimes i feel like being alone is the best way to heal from all the bad. He has been a great partner but we struggle understanding each other. we were discussing that i feel like i need some space to heal if he cant be constantly aware and sensitive towards my pain during the healing process. i also dont want to rely on him to make me feel happy because ill only become frustrated when misunderstood. during this conversation he decides to bring up that he had a burning sensation on the side of his penis and has been also experience syatic nerve pain in his lower back. he told me that those were symtoms of herpes and the timing is just perfect that i want to “heal by myslef” after this bomb that he dropped on me, i feel completely guilty because ive never transfered my disease to anyone and have alway been careful. i feel obligated to stay with him while he gets tested and he made me feel like getting it is the worst thing. which brought back all the emotions i felt when i found out. except this time, im the cause.
hey..
of course you feel guilty, but he is an adult and made the decision to be in a relationship and be intimate. He knew there was a risk.
Please dont let him make you feel like this.