Hi, I’ve been on fluoxetine for 7 and a half months gradually increasing going up from 10 to 60mg, which the last 3 and half months on 60mg.
My tinnitus (already had but under control) worsened when I raised from 10 to 20mg and I kept going hoping it would go away, and it felt like it was getting better, but nope, it permanently came back. It’s like having 2 tinnitus and it drives me crazy.
I also have chronic pain and tension and after 9 months of working hard with phisiotherapy I got not relevant results.
In the beginning I lost almost 15kg that I got back during the last few months.
When I’m hungry I feel like an animal and I need to eat immediately, I get extremely nervous, tense, anxious, grumpy.
I get mentally overwhelmed, nervous, sometimes angry with social interactions.
The blurry vision I got with fluoxetine didn’t go away. I need to remove my glasses to see my phone and labels in supermarkets.
Pure O, rumination, overthinking improved just a little bit, but I still struggle too much, I can’t bear it.
I can’t close my eyes during the day because of tinnitus and pure O that do not allow me to rest/sleep.
I’m isolating more and more myself, finding more pleasure in being alone even if craving social interactions that overwhelm me.
Depression is still very heavy, anxiety is still present and switch to panic attacks almost daily.
Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts but (thankfully I’m not stupid enough to take my life), and I don’t want to cause pain and traumas to my partner and our dog and cat, I love them and I’m using all the strength and energies I have, to stay aligned with my values and be supportive even if struggling myself.
I also take Atarax, 100mg per day to calm myself down.
I think it’s time to evaluate some other medications, I hope someone will agree with me.
I’m in line to get an appointment with a psychiatrist and change/adjust medicine and I’m also in line to get long-term treatment for anxiety and traumas.
But as you can understand, I feel I’m going crazy.
I’m also a kind person who have been through abuses and gaslighting for decades, so I feel rude just thinking about acting angry, I feel I bother just existing, I tend to repress “bad” emotions because I don’t know very well how to handle them (even if I’m working on it and it’s tough).
I just wanted to share my experience so it may be helpful for someone else and get some support from whoever feel like to answer this post.