So as some background, I have suffered from anxiety and depression basically my whole life. I am 26 years old now and recently went through a pretty rough break up with my ex-fiance and was feeling very depresed, high anxiety, lonely, and hopeless.
After crying and not being able to leave my room for 3 weeks I decided it was time that I started trying to get back to taking prozac. I started on 20mg and within a few days started having HORRIBLE side effects. I would wake up at 5am with gut wrenching pain, drive to my job..drive back home..drive to my job again..and then just sit in the car. I would try to go to the gym but I felt like my head was in a fog and I that I wasn't even in my own body. Feelings that I would never wish on any human being. I met with my doc and we lowered it from 20mg to 10mg. Today is day 12 of prozac and day 5 of the 10mg instead of 20mg. I feel amazing now, the depression is gone..the anxiety is gone and I actually am starting to have a feeling of wanting to live my life.
I used to think that I was just the type of person who didn't enjoy social activities, I would smoke weed and watch movies or work -- that was my life for as long as I can remember. Going to the mall gave me anxiety, going out to the lake gave me anxiety..nothing made me feel good except some smoking or drinking to escape the way that I felt. - - Now, I am actually starting to enjoy life and actually able to live...its like a giant boulder has been lifted off my shoulders, I can breathe and think logically.
I share my story to let everyone know that this will work for some if you find the right dosage and push through the feelings of not wanting to do anything or see anyone. Force yourself to get out of bed, shower, and spend time with family. Time + patience is whats been necessary in my expereince to overcome this..and I hope to never be the person I used to be again.
I hope all of you can find this same feeling at some point, even though at times it may feel hopeless and that you don't belong..a lot of people have been there and it can get better!