I met a man in July 2019, after being divorced for 2 years from a 15 year relationship, and started to have a sexual relationship with this new guy in my life. He insisted he didn’t have any STD. I proactively got tested for everything, including herpes, and was negative. He kept delaying taking his test but I trusted him.
Between July-September 1st we had protected sex 3 times, he performed 3 unprotected oral sex on me, and then 9-1-19 we had unprotected sex. This was the last time we had sex.
After that something didn’t feel right and I’m so glad that I listened to my instincts. I had him go get tested finally and he was positive for herpes 1&2. He got cold sores on his mouth since he was little and failed to tell me.
At 5 weeks, 13 weeks, and 30 weeks (yesterday) I did full panel std testing. I was lucky and have tested negative.
I share my story to say that I have been living under fear, anxiety because ever since September my body hasn’t felt normal. No never got a sore but I got random pain, itch, discharge, etc. I let my mind get the best of me & blamed everything to being herpes 
. Either way of your outcome don’t let this stop your life or drain you of your happiness!! We will ALL be ok. We will ALL be loved. Stay positive because that will help you get through this.
This group was a huge support and honestly I prayed to God throughout this journey. Looking back God was there giving me the signs and protection. 
I feel blessed to have escaped the liar and manipulation of the guy I was dating. My ex-husband and I are back together. He’s been there for me since day 1. God has a way of working things out.
Take care of yourself and love yourself kindly. We all are here because we made similar mistakes and mostly without knowing what we were getting into. Don’t beat yourself up. You are strong, you’re a fighter, and this phase shall too pass. You have a beautiful life ahead of yourself. 
