Hi, my name is Nicole I just recently turned 19 in February. On January 13th I went out to a party with my friends and I drank and smoked marijuana and tripped out really bad from the smoking. I was panicking and made my sister come pick me up because I was really bad. The next day my boyfriend left to go back to college and I was obviously feeling sad and my stomach felt empty. That day I started to get bad anxiety something I never get so I was confused. From that day on my anxiety was so bad, I couldn't even leave my house and I skipped school for a couple days because I couldn't handle it. I would shake and my head just felt in a fog and my thoughts would run constantly. I was so exhausted from the anxiety all day but once the night would come I couldn't sleep. If I did sleep, I would wake up every hour because I was so anxious. I started to go back to school and get back on my normal schedule. I really couldn't focus at all and I would just sit there anxious and wanted to be home. From there I started to get better with everything slowly, every week my brain finds something new to think about 24/7 and drives me crazy because I can never relax. The first week I thought I couldn't breathe and my lung was collapsed. The second week I thought I was possessed and something was taking over my body. The third week I thought I was gonna grind my teeth in my sleep and break a tooth. Now I'm having violent thoughts, thoughts about hurting other people or myself when I know I would never! my brain is just running about such crazy things now and I don't know how to make it stop. I am not a violent person at all, I grew up with so many friends and family, I was so normal): I've been trying to see a therapist since January but they cant see me till the beginning of April because they're so booked. I don't want to be put on any medication because I feel like I can do this by myself. People say it could be seasonal anxiety or an inner ear thing that can be causing an imbalance. I don't know what to do at this point, I am very desperate. I am so tired of feeling like this, it's making me so sad and I cry a lot because I don't know how to make this all go away! Please if anyone went through this and got through it please share your story and tell me what you did to be yourself again! All I wanna do is go back to my normal self. I can't even enjoy life anymore):
Do you still drinking and smoking marijuana? If you are, you should really stop taking it. It really bad for you. It triggers anxiety. Take a walk get little bit sun. Drink lots water and try breathing exercise.
O dear you having a tough time if it helps I'm goin through same thing I'm trying to get better on my own but to be truthful I'm not doing very well my anxiety depression intrusive thoughts soon I thing I will be on the tablets I was a dog handler now I'm nothing so you are not alone I wish you good luck
Hello Nicole
First of all am really sorry ur going through this...anxiety can make ur life hell..been there for a long time
Anxiety disorder isnt something that is triggered from one time it builds up over time and explode all of a sudden
My advice to you is to c a psychiatrist because usually anxiety will come along
Or cause depression(as u said u ddnt wanna leave the house) and tell him ur story and see what he suggest
I know that alot of pple assume that medications are an enemy but medication could be and should be used in a transitional phase(3-6months) along with you changing your bad habits lifestyle and cognition ..i hope this helps i know exactly what ur going through and hope ull get back better than before
Tc for now
Hello lovely,
I can't personally relate to how's your feeling as my anxiety hits me in a differently way to you,
However my day suffers the exact same thing as you. He began by trying to drill religion into us, then suddenly one day he was convinced he was being possessed and there was a purpose behind it, once he started getting the harmful thoughts that worried him he took himself to our local A&E were they have a 24 hour mental health crisis team, there he was admitted into a mental health ward, he wasn't sectioned or anything like that. Nor was he made to feel weird in any way, he was simply placed in there for 7 days where it's pretty much just a break from society, medicated daily and being able to mix with people who had the same or similar thoughts as himself helped him, he become good friends with a couple of people in there and still in contact with them now, to this day he swears if he hadn't have spoken out like he did he would have taken his own life. What ever you do don't keep it to you self.. share it and I promise it will feel so much easier on yourself
Hope this helped
Hi Mo,
Thank you, I appreciate it! I hope I get back better than before too):
yes I am): I hope you get better and I wish you good luck too!
No ever since that day i haven’t done either of those things.
Hello Nicole I'm going through the same thing and I'm so scared to take medicine this just came out of nowhere I'm Not happy anymore and I have shut of some of my family I'm nervous all day I don't even feel like going to work anymore it's taken over my life I'm 32 and I just need help I hope you get better soon
Hi Jaunice,
are you having violent thoughts too? I'm scared to take medicine too I feel like its gonna alter my personality and make me different. I hope you get better soon too!
Hi Nicole.
Ok, um, i'm reading a lot of people chiming in here with stories that seem completely unrelated to yours. I wouldn't really advise anyone that possession is a viable, tangible symptom-- that just seems like active imagination and anxiety taking hold. Nor would I advise you to take to heart what they are saying since everyone's experience with mental illness is subjective. That being said, I would advise you to perhaps see a doctor, a primary care practitioner, if you are having concerning symptoms like feeling short of breath, nausea, violence. They can run some tests to see if you have high blood pressure, over active or under thyroid or theres anything else to detect for. A psychiatrist will also help, but I would advise you see a primary care doctor first as you are still young and you psychiatrists will be quick to put you on medication that could cause all different adverse effects. I'm just probing, since I don't know you, that you might have some kind of illness that we can't pinpoint. Just try to relax, book that appointment first, and stay away from caffeine or other high sugar intake so your heart rate doesn't spike. A medical doctor can also give you something to relax if you're in a panic state. Talk to them about the issues. If they tell you it's primarily psychological, then try a psychiatrist. But again, just remember, psychiatrists are JUST pill pushers, the pharmaceutical industry in our country is only out for profit and most of the drugs are outdated, so you might end up with more issues. I hope this helps even a little and DM me if you want to talk. -Marisa
Hello I was trying to get through the day yes I have violent thoughts also but Im trying my hardest not to think about them and I feel like I'm living in fear and that was never me I I have always been outgoing person the person that loves to laugh have fun at parties And last month in March 2018 my step mom and cousin passed away and soon as that happened every thing changed I started having really bad Anxiety I seem to can’t control but I definitely don’t want to take medication well at least for now
Hi again,
I feel the exact same way, i hope we can both have a speedy recovery and be back to normal soon! Maybe it’s seasonal?? Who knows.
I really hope so and I have insomnia so bad are you experiencing this .....
I was when my anxiety was really severe in the beginning. I was lucky if i got 3 hours of sleep, i woke up every hour shaking. I have to say the sleeping does get better over time, melatonin helped for me!
Okay thank you 😘