Hi all,
I've been absent from the forums for a while, plodding on as is the case. The weekends are always a huge trigger for me as I don't have to get up for work, but this weekend I managed to drink only 15 units on the Friday and then 13 units on the Saturday - it's a vast improvement from my 20-25 units, but I still am not able to have a drink free day, I still feel I need a drink come 5pm everyday, if only to chill me out to sleep and wake up the following day.
This is my point, having taken the tablet every day for over a month now I feel no pleasure in anything. I distinctly recall someone posting something similar. I know I have to try get two consecutive drink free days - and in conjunction, no tablets - but it still feels impossible and I can't help but feel myself becoming depressed - which is not a good thing for me.
Continuing taking tablet as described, don't get me wrong glad I haven't woke up with a hangover this weekend - which is usually the case, but I can't remember the last time I was genuinely happy about anything?
I went for a drive earlier in the sun - usually something I enjoy - I couldn't have cared less, I drove the scenic route to get wine (I'd taken my tablet two hours before accordingly).
Feeling largely apathetic and fed up. I feel I'm in limbo, trying for a drink free day whilst continuing with Nalmefene, but also wanting to give up the tablets in order to feel a hint of happiness.