Hi,
I'm new to these forums but I came across it whilst searching the Internet for advice and thought that you guys might be able to point me the right direction.
I have suffered with very acute depression for many years which I could also handle very well. But over the past couple of years it has slowly been building up, I reached a stage in my life where I was unhappy with my job, future prospects etc. I also worked close to 300 hours per month which I guess really didn't help.
Anyhow to cut a long story short I have been off work since October last year. I ended up in hospital attempting suicide, taken drugs to relieve my depression in someway, self harmed etc. A couple months back I managed to get back on my feet and get accepted for my dream job..........which I recently just found out I can't have because I have money problems.
Now i'm out of work, have debt to sort etc. Now the depression has come back in a big way and i'm suffering severe anxiety attacks.
My biggest problem is that no one seems to want to help me. My girlfriend doesn't understand one bit and is always arguing with me and accusing me, my parents just say get some sleep. I have been to citizens advice and they basically palmed me off and all my GP can recommend is more citalopram.
I seriously want help, please what can I do and where should I go. I need help paying bills, I need help finding a new job and I need help with my drepression/anxiety. I can't cope anymore and I fear something very bad is going to happen, as I keep having sucidal thoughts and researching the best methods.
I really feel like no one understands and is willing to help me. So i'm hiding it from everybody, but its building up in a big way.
any advice is much appreciated.
See a different gp, citalopram clearly isn't working and there is a vast range of other meds that may help. Most people on antidepressants try several before finding one that works. I haven through 5. Also ask to go to counciling as that helps.
finally contact the money advice service and they can help with your dept. also the site moneysavingexpert has a section for people in a dept crises and will have very valuable info.
dont worry that others don't understand, that's very common unfortunatel. It's not on purpose it's just that unless you have been there depression can be hard to understand.
Will your GP recommend you seeing a psychiatrist? He does not seem very helpful. What about counselling, have you asked him about that? Or perhaps you don't want to do that.
What a shame your girlfriend and parents are not supportive. Why us that? Do they not understand how seriously ill you are? Give them some paperwork about depression so they can read it and understand that depression is a very serious illness. You need support, and like you say, want help.
I think the first person to approach is your GP. You must stress to him just how ill you are. In light of your suicide bid, I am surprised you were not given more support.
You did really well to come out of that episode. I know how difficult it is because I have been in that situation myself. There should be a mental health team in your area, and again your doctor should be able to put you in touch with them. Find a more helpful doctor if the one you saw previously just fobbed you off with more medication.
Well at least everyone here understands, as we all have depression, in my case for many, many years.l Been to hell and back. You will get support here, but unfortunately we cannot get you the practical help you need.
I say to you don't hid your problems. If you do that people will feel you are coping and don't need help. Try hard to get the support you need. Try and make those closest to you help you through this.
i am surprised you Doctor has not contacted your Mental health team. may i suggest you contact them yourself. I know it is hard to get help but think about what you need to get better. i urge you to even contact your local A&E who have Mental Health Nurses on call it worked for me a couple of years ago. Be positive because you are not alone and there is help out there,