I have been fighting this horrible HA for years. I have had too many cancers to begin to describe. It is horrible, I wake up every morning I complete panic mode.
My most current terror is that when I wipe that area with toilet paper there was a small smear of blood - that was seven days ago - then last night there was another pin prick size of blood.
I had this same thing last May - went to see doctor and she said it was a abrasion, there was a blood clot which means it was healing - no worries. When I went to my own doctor she slipped in a pap smear - so I stopped feeling fear over the blood thing and switched to feeling fear over the pap smear, which came back clear.
This blood thing that I am going through now is the exact same as before. Why can't I believe that it is not some kind of cancer
I had the blood thing just before the pap smear - so if that came back clear why do I feel such fear now that I have the same thing.
I feel like I go from one bodily fear/cancer to another. The only way one stops is when I start feeling fear over another one.
I hate living like this - never happy - always living in fear
First of all you have no need to worry. Doctors are well educated. I m in similar condition last 4 years. 23 cardiologist checked me and they said anxiety. Do you smoke? Anxiety kills our life. People want they have to suidide.
I dont believe on doctors i say i have heart problem but i have to believe in dr. Because they saw hearts from inner side when they operation an open heart surgery. So as i read your story i guess i have all same conditions that you have now. You always has a fear of heart failure or heart attack. But nothing. Like you i have also unhealthy life style. I m 37 . My life is ruind.my english is not good so please dont mind. I think my life is finished. I did not marry. I cannot enjoy my life.
I understand your all problem. You believe nobody understanding you. You are true. But i understand your all problem. Your mind lose constration and confidence. Day by day its going too bad. You feel weakness in brain.
What your family members are doing? Are they understand you?
So now come towards solution. You need a possitive thinking. Do you have friends? I guess when you meet to your friends your first periorty to discuss problem. This is not good. You have to be brave. Here every one can only tell you his story. But nobody stand with you. I think your are from west. But distance does not matters. Actually anxeity takes long time to go. And sleeping mind pills are not effected. Its feel like we drunk. We cannot take serious and enjoy our life. You need people who talk with you and encourage you. Coperate you. I m far from you but i can help you if you agree. Because i face anxiety and pain attacks. Thanks and smile. Stay blessed.
I m with u with u with you. I told you my story. You are not alone. Discuss with me. Hope you will feel better.
Hi Rosalee Every one on this site knows how your feeling .I am the same I get over one fear on to the next .It is a living ■■■■ .people do not understand if they don’t suffer this horrendous condition.Please try and believe the doctors .Try and divert your mind on saying this I have no answers if I did I’d cure us all but I really think it helps to know that you are not on your own when you read this site it as helped me coming on here realising there is so many people like me .( not that I’d wish this on anyone)I really do hope you get some mental health help good luck
You are always going to worry it's cancer or something serious, no matter what tests are done or what your Dr. says bc you have health anxiety. That's what health anxiety is! Irrational fears with your health and worrying about not being healthy. I have been going through the same thing for about 6 or 7 months now... First I had chest pains and worried I was having heart issues, then the Dr said nope you're fine, then I was having bad headaches and worried I had a tumor, they did an MRI and nope! I'm fine haha. It is honestly a terrible feeling and I totally understand what you're going through. Has you always had HA? I believe mine is from a recent death in my family, someone that was close to me passed away from cancer and I think that's where my HA is stemming from now bc I never had it before. I always had anxiety issues but HA just came about recently after the loss in my family. I have started seeing a therapist and I think it is definitely helping. I highly recommend talking to someone, and if not that - talk to your doctor about going on an antidepressant temporarily. It can help your mind get set straight and improve your mood so you can see there actually is nothing wrong with you and calm down!
In just a few months, I've worried about liver problems, heart problems, stomach cancer, breast cancer, brain tumor, and now, I'm really scared about colon cancer even though it just might be my sensitive colon acting up again after settling down for a few years. I don't have a lot of people to talk to either. They don't understand me. None of time. That's why I had to take therapy in hopes that my therapist would be a good listener and understands. I stopped CBT before I fully recover and now my anxiety is back, even more worse actually. Now, I'm again, back in that state where I don't want to communicate with anyone, I just wanna isolate myself and pray that all my problems would go away. So far, postponing therapy sessions again only makes me more and more anxious everyday. My symptoms are getting worse and more symptoms are showing up. And new symptoms means more googling which results in more health anxiety. I worry about blood in my stool or even urine all the time. Never had seen visible blood in my stool before but HA makes us still worried.
You won't believe how many people I have I'm fine just this past week! And new pepole tells me I'm fine every weeks and this has been going on since Februrary. Possibly more than 20 friends and family have told me I'm fine in just 2 weeks. My doctor said I look normal, nothing alarming but HA makes everything worse! All of this is taking over my life. It's like my life and mental health is like a vase, spiraling down a staircase, soon going to reach the hard floor and break.