I'm struggling again, so tempted to od again. Can't phone anyone, have SS sniffing around, so scared, so suicidal. Need some company, on my own.
Dont think suicide!
Are you on any medication? Do you drink?
May I ask how old you are?
Hi, I'm on Escitalopram 20mg, been for a while, and I don't drink. Can't stop thinking about being better off dead.
You are not better off dead.
Many people that you may not even be aware of would be very devestated.
Please try to hold on...this will pass....all my problems and feelings of suicide eventually pass....
When I think that I almost killed myself I shiver...please give your life some more time to improve.
My life seems to be getting worse rather than better these days. Only so much I can take.
I feel exactly the same as you at the moment mami5
Life always has a way of pulling you down even further no matter how low you already feel! When you think things can't get any worse, it does.
I don't mean to be so negative, you need some positivity right now. I'm just writing to say I understand and you are not alone. All I can suggest is to try and find some sort of distraction for yourself.
Stay strong xx
mami and fee...
I quit drinking 10 years ago...and my life GOT WORSE....I quit my job 2 years ago....making ALOT of money...due to health and mental health reasons...My life got worse.
I started drinking again at the end of 2013 and my life got even worse.
I thought about killing myself many times...but as I look back, no matter what has been thrown at me...I'm still here...I can't give up (I won't give up on being happy someday).
Death is so final...I have FORCED myself a couple things a day that I am grateful for (my dinner...my tv...my computer)...somedays I can't think of anything...seems that is where you both are right now.
Please hang on...it has to get better.....you have a purpose in this life.
I replied to you and fee under mami's post.
Hi, I'm sorry you're suffering too.
I have BPD and continuous suicidal thoughts and od's are part of it.
Hope you'll be better soon. x
Mani,
Just wanted to offer you some support. I know how it feels. Im going thrrew a deep deppresion as well.
I've been trying to do a few litle things to bring my spirits up. I started writing a journal just to get my thoughts out. Also there's a few good websites with upliftng short blogs and information that will might help.
Sometimes it helps to know there is another person out there with you.
Please stay strong., Sending good thoughts to you.
Oh~ the web has lots of places to find uplifting quotes.I read quite a few for inspiration., I cried like a baby butd it released some of the feelings~ i use pinterst for those therre are tons of them.
Better days are coming feel better.
Hi no you wouldn't be better off dead, because you wouldn't be anything except dead would you? I think you should go back to your doctor and tell him/her how you are feeling. Maybe a higher dose of the meds would help or a totally different one. Are you having counselling?
Suicidal feelings do pass you know, and suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. x
Feel so low, just want to disappear from this earth for good.