everyone says I’m fine but I cannot shake the thought. I’m fifteen, was diagnosed with panic disorder and depression, I wasn’t put on remeron in July. My depression went away, but I still had anxiety. I’m trying Prozac because my psychiatrist said it’ll help the obsessive thoughts. In February of this year, I had my first panic attack. I didn’t know it was a panic attack, so I had my mother drive me to the ER because I thought I was having a heart attack. Still to this day I have no idea why I had a panic attack, or why I continue to have them. I don’t know any reason, but I do know that most of the time it’s because I overthink about my symptoms. I’m constantly thinking about them, about how they’re going to kill me. About how I have something seriously wrong and I’m never going to get better. I was in the hospital for a week because my heart rate was high the whole time. They did three ekgs, two echos, chest X-ray, and blood work. All normal. I was fine up until July. I had bad anxiety at night, but one day during the summer it got really bad. I felt sick all day everyday, I cried everywhere I went, and I was obsessed with the thought of me having a brain tumor. It was so bad that my doctor sent me to the children’s mental hospital where I stayed for four days. I had a head CT, all clear. Blood work again, all clear. My symptoms went away for about two weeks. I never think about a brain tumor anymore. Instead I’m obsessed with my heart. I go to the cardiologist every year to have it checked and it’s always been fine. I go in a couple of weeks and I’m absolutely terrified they’re going to find something. I’m scared I’m going to have surgery, but overall I’m scared I’m going to die. I’m currently coming off of ADs and so I’m feeling bad, but I keep associating these feelings with my heart obsession. I can’t stop thinking there’s something wrong. I’m too scared to talk about it with my therapist or my mom then because I’m scared they’ll think something is wrong too. I don’t know what to do, I feel stuck. I feel like I’m going to die. I’m only fifteen and the only thing I ever do is worry. My bpm changes all the time throughout the day. Sometimes it’s slow, sometimes fast. I have palpitations, I have what feels like skipped beats. I have chest pains, sometimes dull, sometimes sharp. I have back pain, have had arm pain, shoulder pain, leg pain, ankle pain. I feel nauseous, I get out of breath while working out easily. I’m so scared. Everyone says it’s anxiety, but that’s all they ever say. I really hope the Prozac works but with my luck it won’t. Can anyone give me any reassurance/tips/advice ANYTHING. I know many people have already given me talks and reassurance but no matter how much I want to, I can’t believe them when they say I’m fine. I’m so worried about the cardio appt. My doc said I’d be fine, I could work out and do sports with no problem. But NOW I feel like I can’t. I feel like if I work too hard I’ll die. I want help but I’m too scared to open up to my therapist or even my mother or the doctors because I don’t want them to suspect there’s something actually wrong. I don’t know what to do
I feel so badly for you. I find that when I get panic attacks and anxiety it helps me to breathe deeply inhaling through the nose , exhaling through the nose. I learned this through taking yoga.
I hope you feel better soon. You can Google breathing techniques on you tube.
This is me right now.. Feel so alone and scared 😭 I’m having chest pains and back pain right now, so scared I’ll die in my sleep and won’t wake up.. Don’t even want to go back to the doctor because she already thinks I’m crazy with how many times I’ve gone!! Idk what to tell you I feel so scared myself!
Reach me out