Hii , I've been diagnosed depression , and doctor had given me the medicine, i ate it for 2 weeks then i stop cause i feel i'm getting better. And i also afraid that i become just like my aunt, she has a cronic deppression that make her couldnt live without the medicine, and those medicine make her hands shaking , and also make she bit her own teeth ..
So i've tried my best to avoid the medicine.. and i've been okay for 2 months but lately, it's hard for me to sleep, and i only slept for 4 or 5 hours daily, i keep waking up very early everyday.. and my Appetite are increasing , i keep eating and i found myself comfortable while eating , i cant feel full, i've gained 10kgs less than one months and i feel deppressed and low self-esteem if i dont eat 
Should i take the medicine or controlling my portion? I'm afraid i become like my aunt 
i need and advice please
hello, well how are u doing now??
Well honestly in my opinion I don think you should eat the medicine. because it might help for now, but might have the side effects you have mentioned. You are strong and smart. You can go through this. Instead of handling all at once. Try taking it one step at a time.
If you feel that you can cope without the medication then don't take it is my advice. Antidepressants can be helpfull short term if they help but staying on them for a long time just causes more problems in my experience with them. I wouldn't worry to much about eating a bit to much as its a lot more easy to lose some weight than it is to get off antidepressants after taking them for a long time
My best advice is to do plenty of walking
One walk everyday for between one mile to two or three miles
And drink lots of good water like Highland spring or Buxton etc
And eat lots of fruit and veg
Best fruit of all in my opinion are blueberries strongly recommend them
Try to find a passion or interest in something from job or voluntary work or hobbies
And find people to talk with
Cognitive therapy through doctors is much better cure in my opinion than taking depression drugs but im not a doctor just my opinion
And surround yourself with people who love you and some one you can talk with on anything and about depression
If its mild depression thats my advice if its more serious like bipolar then drugs probably needed
Also myself I find st John's wort herbal drug for mild depression I find is much better to take
Known as sunshine plant for making people happier
Honestly, i'm messed up... i keep on putting some weigh so that i dont feel deppressed and i'm almost overweigh
Thankyou jemimah !! I'll try my best to handle this !:"
Sometimes it relapse when i'm alone :'
Yeahh i know those medicine are bad ! Hope you're okay mike ...
I'll try to avoid those medicinee :'D
But i dont know what to do with my low self-esteem and feeling worthless
I guess everyone who loves me are tired of my weird mood
I dont think they understand me .. and now , i try to hide it by my own and pretend that im okay infront of them ..
But it always relapse when i'm on my own in my bedroom. And i couldnt get a good sleep .
Hey meryananana,
Well you know what first thing you can try is by loving urself, you are unique and special. No one can ever replace you, no matter how much they might saw or try. Those people who might look down on you, well down care about them, I know it's easier to say it. But that's what I try to do in most situations. If u might see that you are worthless. Think of the one who created you with so much detail and speciality. He loves and he will be with you every step of the way