Hi all,
as per usual I'm having a tough morning. Bad anxiety, feeling really low, scared, crying. I just feel like such a burden to my family. I know they don't feel that way but it's hard to feel like such a downer and a weight. I struggle so to get through every day. I'm not much help to them. My daughter is doing all the things I would normally be doing to help out with her brothers wedding. She's such a great girl. I'm terrified I will be stuck in this state forever. It's going to get better, right? I'm just scared all the time. It's not like me. I'm having a hard time being this weak, useless and needy.
I so appreciate all the support I get from you folks on this site.
Thank you
Laurie
Hey Laurie, I remember this time well and I was no different to you. In fact I was so bad I wanted my family to take me to hospital, as I couldn't sleep too.
One thing that helped me get some control over the anxiety is Lorazepam - this was prescribed by my doctor. I used it really sparingly initially as i didn't know really what it was for. Once I started using it properly, it really calmed me down - at least to a point where I was not in a constant state of panic., crying etc.
I have a 10 month year old daughter, and I couldn't even help - I was felt like a let down and useless. However now (at the end of 7 weeks) I'm not just functional but im engaged and having lots of fun with her and my family a lot of the time.
For me I got some relief at the end of week 4 and more at week 6. Now I'm back to full time work and enjoying it most of the time.
You need to remember this is not you, it's side effects from the medication and it will pass.
Stay strong and I hope you get some relief soon.
Thank you Craig,
Your words always help to calm me a bit. It's important to me to get input from people who have or are going through the same struggles.
Im happy that you are now able to enjoy your family and life again.
i hope to get there sometime soon. Mental illness sucks and it's hard for others who have not suffered with it to understand.
please enjoy your weekend with your family.
Laurie