Need to rant

I have just lost another friend to my depression and need to have a rant . I have since a child suffered from depression and tried many things to help but the one thing I have learnt is to be honest and open about my feelings having said this lately every time I express how I'm feeling , mainly lonely , lost and not liked my friends run a mile . I am now with out a single friend . I do feel that I must explain that I have what I call moments , the latest one was that I texted a few people and asked them to tell me why they didn't like me and also texted my best friend why I was never invited out with a sertain group of her friends ( paranoid or what ) . I got to say the texts I sent to people went quit well and I received some very franc and honest answers ,how ever the conversation with my best friend did not go very well and ended up with a who said what argument . I started to cry so ended the call but as soon as I did I text her and told her that I was sorry and to upset to talk but could we get together the next day. The answer was that she was busy ironing all that day but would be free the following day. That my friends is just the response you need lol . 

The conclusion of this rant is I'm tired off people not understand this condition and feel that every young person should be taught (as well as CPR ) how to see the signs and the responses they should give as both could save someone's life one day 

Sorry I didn't mention that I actually feel fine know and sad as all this is a lot better about self . I had a real eureka moment and realised that these people didn't hate me but we're just indifferent and there really isn't much I can do about that x

Hello Louise, I have suffered all my life with anxiety. But have good days and bad days. OK how old are you? Do you have a close friend who you can talk to? Do you have a good health food shop near by? They are always a good place to go! Are you on any meds? Have you ever had reflexology? Or a massage? Aromatherapy is great for depression! We all need to treat ourselves! We only have 1chance with our lives!! Please take good care of you! Regards Amanda

My "moments " do tend to come after have been ill especially after a sinus infection 

Hi thanks for your reply in answer to your questions I am 45 and no friends anymore . I do how ever find righting my problems down help but sometimes it comes on me that quick that there is no time for reason . I'm not on Meds at the moment and I have tried plenty in the past , not tried reflexology though so will be giving that ago x

Hi Louise, thank you for your reply! Where in the uk are you? Swimming is also good for one as well! But do please treat your self to a reflexology session! You will not regret it! Regards Amanda

I'm from Chester xxx