I really just need to vent. I dont k ow anyone in my circle to vent to cuz none of them know what I've been dealing with so I came here because so many can relate and maybe someone can give some advice.
This Feb will mark 3 yrs since my shoulder injury. Next month will be a yr and a half since my last of 3 surgeries. I've gained about 80% of ROM back but hurts when I get to that point. My Dr has me on restrictions indefinitely. My employer has me doing my job at 100% but that's with using my other arm a lot more. I'm feeling the effects of over use in that arm now. I'm at my wits end with it all. I'm still not sleeping good. I toss and turn all night trying to find a comfortable position. I dream about my pain at least 4 nights out of the week. In my dreams my Dr either tells me I'm fine or he actually listens to me and just when he's going to run some tests or tell me what's wrong I wake up. I feel like this is all a nightmare I cant wake up from. Everyone tells me to find a new job which probably wouldn't be a bad idea but leaving it still won't make my shoulder any better. I'm still trying to figure out how to live with this pain but it's hard. Thank you for letting me vent and may none of you ever have to go through what I'm going through.