A pattern seems to be emerging. 4 weeks on Citalopram. 1st 2 with awful side effects 3rd-4th getting better. End of 4th crash. Up pills and repeat. 8 weeks in now and I'm on the crash phase of the cycle. The Suicidal thoughts I'm having are very strong. I mean, stronger than before, and I'm worrying and srptressing about them.
i was hanging all hope on the result of my psychiatritic medicine review due to be fed back to me today, but I've been let down by my mental health service. They didn't call me back with the conclusions. Not even a courtesy call to maybe say the review has been delayed.
My anxiety has been causing me to stress about this all week. Now I'm mega wound up. It's distressing. I'm confused and distressed now. I did chase them today, to no avail. Will have to chase again in the morning.
Citalopram, I found made me worse. A few people I know who have been on it had very negative affects too. Have you tried anything else? I would personally say change to someone like Fluoxetine, I have seen it make a real difference in me.
Do not act on those negative thoughts, it will make the whole thing worse for you.
Keep on with your mental health service, and talk to them about how they have let you down. There is no excuse for letting patients down, especially with mental health issues.
I got through to my case worker this morning. He told me that the pych doctor wants to see me. He has requested an appointment and didn't call me back as he is waiting to receive confirmation. I told him how important it is that if he promised to call, he should call. If he had told me that yesterday, then I could have put things into perspective. Instead my anxiety raced away with me and last night I ended up on the phone, sobbing to the samitarians. Crikey! That was only last night. It seems lite a year ago already. I haven't slept much, and I'm a bit of a wreck.
All said, I've just 30minutes ago received a call from the doctors and scheduled my pychariast
Appointment is tomorrow morning thank goodness. Seems I can sigh a breath or relief again.
It's terrible how 1 piece of lack of communication could send me into such turmoil. Today is a new day, and with the appointment booked, onwards and upwards. (Hopefully)