Hey everyone
I wanted to share my new found hope with all out there who are struggling. Yes, just a few days ago I was on the other side and didn´t see (even if I wanted to believe) how I would come to here…I went straight into Hospital after leaving School before the end lessons, well, I didn´t go myself, I had my mom take me there, I myself didn´t even see the point in moving anymore.. And yet here I am. From experience I know that when you´re down there, it could be the littlest of truly positive experiences that can get you going for a few more days...I don´t know your story and it´s perfectly fine when it´s different. All our pain is relevant. But there is more than that pain...much more. I really hope this doesn´t trigger anyone negatively. What I´m Talking About here isn´t some Fancy Meditation (thought they can be helpful for sure) or seeing Things differently (thought that too certainly can help a lot). Here I´m Talking plainly About Medicine. I got prescribed some from my psychiatrist three days ago and I´ve already been seeing differences. I don´t want to die. And this is something incredibly new for a Person who´s had the thoughts for more than 3 years now… I am not saying Medicine is the new hope for everyone. I am not... Maybe your new hope would be exercising, or therapy or a new Hobby, or anything else...There is no perfect answer, Right? Life is Beautiful, but I didn´t see it because my brain was out of balance. And I´m still not in perfect condition, and I still am commited to going to therapy and also changing my Habits, but hey, for now I feel like there is life after School and I want you to know that Things can Change. Just be good to yourself and know that you are, in fact, doing your very best at the Moment. And then try to get creative about your problems. I know it´s not easy. But one day, you may look back and think "Hey, this was actually fun.. I like life"
I sincerely wish you all the best and don´t lose hope completely because there is so much more we don´t know. When we say "it will never get better" it´s like we´re saying hey, I´m so smart, i know what will happen. But ya know what, you don´t. You´re not that smart. And thank god you aren´t.