First things first,I was diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder so most of this is to do with my very unfortunate mental health issue.
But I've recently gotten into a new relationship and I love it, I love being able to live my life like 'normal'. But of course, my anxiety comes in to play.
I'm constantly checking my phone to see if they've replied or messaged me, I'm constantly apologising or refraining from asking for reassurance if I'm being annoying or too much. I'm scared that I'm too much for them or that I'll eventually drive them away. Losing people is a huge fear of mine which ties into my anxiety episodes.
We have a timezone difference which makes me really nervous too - I adore being with them, and they're absolutely wonderful - but it's just my severe amounts of anxiety that's getting to me.
These problems are not unusual, my first relationship was with a National from another country, she had to go home a seven hour flight and was away for over three weeks to see Her Family, She was from a very exotic location where the beach set would surf and boat and there was me attending a fair ground and having a holiday with parents and sisters. I wold go to the airport a week early to see if she was on the plane home and it just made me worse when she did not arrive. A week later on her return it was a wonderful thing and we had a holiday away for a few days on her return.
Look on it this way if the relationship is supposed to last it will, if not you are lucky to find out before any decisions are made for both futures together.
We broke up two years later and I married someone else, that is what happens. You need to understand you will find someone new and you will kno when that happens. When we have a first love etc, we feel we will never love again. Do not worry there is someone out there waiting for you, either your existing partner, or someone new. Whatever happens will be right for you at that time.
Enjoy your youth, and its search for that elusive partner that will give you the shakes