Hi, I am new to this depression forum. I have been posting at the bipolar section of this site, but it's pretty slow and this one seems more active; so, because there's a strong link between depression and bipolar disease, I decided to begin posting here. I have been doing okay on only 50. mg. seroquel and I am 74 so this dosage seems to be the right one for me. It really does wonders for my sleep. I was in therapy for awhile but the only therapist I have available to me (because of financial restraints) was not right for me. I am still a little bit afraid of myself because the little episodes of bipolar anger and frustration are unpredictable and seem to creep up on me without any warning. So for me it's a matter of catching the subtle signs of one of these episodes coming on. And then, as I look back, I can see the devastating effects of this disease just ruining my life at every turn. It's truly all a shambles.
I am sincerely sorry to hear that you are struggling. It seems that so many are experiencing difficulty coping in the world as it is today. These times have been referred to as “critical times hard to deal with”, and you have only to look around – or look within our own lives – to know that it is true.
Other than therapy, do you have any other supports available to you? What other coping tools do you use?
I am relying on my self-awareness to keep me out of trouble as far as episodes go. Knowing myself and how I am and what triggers me and when I’m in one of “those” states, and just - well - just holding it in to put it bluntly! Don’t let anything escape my mouth. As soon as I open my mouth when I’m feeling disturbed, I’m in trouble. If I had a zipper it would help a lot.
“Critical times hard to deal with” is a great phrase for what’s going on in the world today. There’s always 99 things there to potentially trigger me.