Im in a bit of a state and although im not the only one, but it does feel lonely. So im 26 next month and im coming to realise i do have genital herpes. Im gutted. I beleive my first out break was ar 20 yrs old whilst i was in a long term relationship. I was in errible pain that i even called the emergency doctor who told me he would not come out for silly things like herpes. I saw the nurse the next day who refused to test me n said it was an iffected shaving rash. I at the time was relived as the thought my then bf had cheated was awful although deep down i know she was wrong. Since then i thought i had recurrent thrush but iv read today mild herpes symptoms can be thrush like?! 5 days ago i started with a bad outbreak, itching burning lumps, blisters and spots and i really believe its herpes. Everything points to them. Im struggling at work n a bath is the only thing to help. I wasnt going to go to the clinic but i realised im stupid n have just booked myself in but its a week on tuesday n i dont think i can last that long. More spots are appearing n i cant cope, iv been working then bathing n going straight to bed. I need to sort it once n for all so im ringing another clinic tomorrow to see if they will help quicker. I know i shouldnt but i feel dirty and disgusting. I only have slept with 4 people n feel very unlucky although i know it could be worse. Can anyone help me know what to expect and also how you cope with it? Tips to stop the itch ect. Thanks to everyone im advance xxx
Tilatea, I'm sorry you are dealing w this, I know all too well just how devastating it is.
The fact that you have having such a bad ob at this stage and having it as long as you have, is indicative of something else going on. One thing for sure herpes does, is out a magnifying glass on not just your physical health, but your mental health. Start paying attention to your body. Since I got this, I started logging daily in a journal my symptoms, what may have happened that day emotionally or even food/drink/lack of sleep. I also started taking supplements and logged the changes based on those supplements. Something has changed for you to experience such a bad recurrent ob.
Take long hot Epsom salt baths during obs. Daily I do the following, which has helped me immensely go from constant daily symptoms to almost to none:
- daily multi vitamin
- 2000 mlgs of vitamin d and c
- zinc, magnesium and all B vitamins
- daily live culture probiotic
I haven't had heroes for even a yr yet, but I am familiar w the feeling of feeling dirty, but after time I got over that. I can imagine that suddenly have such extreme symptoms would reawaken that feekig, hut because I have symptoms most of the time; I've been forced to just deal w it. I cannot change it. I cannot get rid of this virus. Feeling dirty and ashamed will not change it either. So at this point, I realize I have the choice to let it co trok and define who I am or view it as any other daily chronic illness I may have (autoimmune disorder I have) and treat it as something of an annoyance, but not a game stopper. This is how you should see it as. It also has helped me to take my time and evaluate a persons character more, before I invest a ton of emotion into them.
Feelbroken thanku for your reply. It genuinely means a lot. I also find it strange its been years since i had any real symptoms. I am going to get those vitamins like u said as anything that will help i will try. The diary is also an excellent idea. I read stress ect can trigger but genuinely lifes been better lately then it has been in a while. Only thing different is i had surgery on my knee to fix a cartludge problem, i was extremely stressed but that was january?! Either way im certain that herpes is the problemor maybe something else like u said. yes its painful but i think the worst is the emotional side of getting ur head round the prospect. I got up n rang the gum clinic straight away but they said todays really busy and to go in tomorrow soon as it opens. Im worried tho cos ovs im having full symptoms but the thought of someone seeing it fills me with dread. But i dont know if i can wait as its getting worse. I try n remind myself this is what they see regulary but i still feel terrible.
The way u have spoke about ur coming to terms with it is great and i hope that if this is what it is i can be invisioned like urself. U are right about who to invest emotion in. At the time i had been with this guy over 2 years and never tnought hed do anything but i was wrong.
Will they not just call in a prescription for you? You guys do stuff completely different in the UK, than the US, makes me thankful for the healthcare system here.
I know it's embarrassing to let someone see you down there when looking like that, as my GP want to have a look after I'd already seen my Gyno and so did the male ER doctor, when I came in needing nerve pain meds. I wouldn't let either of them look at me, as I informed them my gyno had already taken a look and diagnosed me. I wasn't embarrassed w my gyno.
Just hang in there, it'll get better!