i have not been on for a long time, last time somebody upset me with a reply, don't know if it was me or they didn't like me. Who knows. I'm coming off my meds to start new ones, Ive had nothing for 2 days, and it's hit me really hard. I don't think I could get any lower than I am know. Life is rubbish, and just so hard. I hate this and me for feeling this, if I could only try harder. If only I was a good person, then maybe I would be able to handle it. I know that it's my fault for letting it get the better of me.
Welcome back!
Starting new meds always is a chance to feel better! So I am crossing fingers for you that they work and you are getting out of the depth soon.
Deep down you probably know that you are not a bad person, that you can't try harder, because it's a vicious illness that can hit everybody - no matter how smart or good they are.
I agree with you - life is rubbish. But only until you find the right drug mix with your doctor. Then things will look better and life will get easier. I promise!
I've just been in a 6 months long episode with daily suicidal thoughts and I am just now coming out of it. I am finding my old self underneath all that rubbish. It feels good!
So please don't give up and don't chastize yourself for being ill. You wouldnt blame yourself if you had the flu, would you?
Sending lots of hugs!
I think that sometimes people have conflicting views to our own, and if they feel strongly enough about it they might challenge us.
I am sure that it cannot be the case that someone can take a dislike to another person on this forum, as they simply do not know us or how we suffer.
When we are not very well we do tend to be very sensitive, but we really should not fall into the trap of feeling anything other than empathetic or at worst sympathetic towards our fellow sufferers, and certainly not critical.
So let me take it upon myself to apologise to you on behalf of whoever it was that upset you.
As for your other comments, yes life can be a bit of a pig and you should certainly not hate yourself because that is the way that life appears to you at the moment.
I know it can sound a bit glib, but things can and will improve for us if we have help and accept it, and give ourselves adequate time.
So my message is, take heart and gather all your strength together because tomorrow or the day afterwards can seem totally different, when the rays of sunshine appear through the clouds again.
Best wishes
Rod
I have to change meds too, but my doctor does not make me go cold turkey. She tells me to take less and less each day; thereby gradually decreasing my usage of the meds. This helps with some of the symptoms one might experience if she or he goes cold turkey. You might want to talk to your doctor about this.
I have decreased, from 40mg to 10mg, then 3 days on nothing then on new meds, 1 day left, I never thought I needed them but the way I'm feeling proves to me I do.