I've hah generalised anxiety disorder for many years but since the birth of my son 2 years ago I have suffered a depression that is getting deeper by the day. He suffered lack of oxygen at birth and is disabled as a result. I'm so desperately sad for him. He can't walk, sit or use his hands and I'm overwhelmed by my sadness. It's making me more anxious than ever. I've had to come off my pills as I got to have ivf if I want another baby so don't want to cause any problems by using the pills. I feel torn apart every minute that I spend watching him squirm and struggle, it's completely broken my heart. I can't do this anymore 
Hi there i dont know the nature of your sons disability is there a support network for parents ! It would be a start if you can get help dealing with your sons condition then yoi will be more ready to deal with it your self maybe you are putting to much pressure on your self to get better so you can get the ivf ! Ivf in its elf is very.stressful i know myself and my.wife tried and fail ivf and we went through so much we decided not to procede a second time im not trying to put you off ivf just that its better to get the help you need now so you are more mentally prepared for ivf i wish you all the luck god bless david !
Hi g67504.
I so feel for you in your very sad and difficult situation... you must have a
Truly special little SON who has a very loving mother... children are an
Absolute blessing but they can also make our hearts ache...
I have a different situation to you you. But I also feel the most sadness and overwhelming love for my three adults sons.. they live with us ( and. They always will ) as all three suffer from mental health problems.. it breaks my heart too.when I think of all the things that they have, and will, miss out on....
You sound as though you would be a wonderful mother to another child . I am sure that he / she would both love and protect their big brother from all and till the end of time xx I sincerely wish your family true luck and happiness for every single day.... kindest regards Deirdre xxx
My love goes out to you today, your son has a very special mummy. xx