Nothing is helping and nothing is shown wrong. I need some serious smart advices as i cannot go on

Mental health
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Only as a 20 yo boy I feel so destroyed. So let down, afraid and furious.

I have had like over hundreds of symptoms that pass by and some that remain for a longer time. I do get sided pains but only if I sit in bad positions or walk. My body is somehow tense like all the time and those pains in my spine somehow affect even my ear and tongue although I have no idea of the relations I do not want to read online cause that is what destroyed me. Being convinced that I have all the possible cancers and other fatal diseases.

I have suffered for 8 years since I was 12, living with the fear of death and instant heart attacks. To be honest had some good years along the line but since the night of 21st december 2016, more than a year ago when I was smoking a joint I fell some hoteness around my chest that moved up to my throat. My heart was beating incrediblu fast and parts of my body were feeling cold/numb. Had my friends to rush me to the ER where I only got worse. But after being given something my heart rate got down to 100 from 150 and I was not feeling dizzy anymore. Ecgs and stuff showed no abnormalities whatsoever.

Since then I have been so bad. Checking my body for any possible rashes or red spots, fearing of blood clots and all.

My heart rate is fast like 90-100 bpm up to 120 while walking or after eating/smoking a cig.

To be honest that freaks me up, although during the nights it stabilzes like 60-75 bpm.

Had over 20 ecgs, 10 echodiagrams, holter monitoring and even a stress test, had CT of head, dozens of blood tests, hearing tests, eye pressure and reaction test, had a breathing capacity test, had my stomach and neck arteries checked through echodiagram, had multiple neruology visits, had my tongue checked by an ENT proffesional (that time my tongue was weird I felt like it could strike my airway any second, God it was a terrible symptom) only to be told that I am all good? Like hearing the same thing from over 20 doctors...

I am still so scared though, I have the capacity of being very very successful but I am blowing everything away. It sucks to go through what I am going through.

Why is my heart rate like that?

I understand the pains that I am gettimg because I have been sitting im bad positions daily in front of the computer playing video games. And now I am working with a computer at the office 9 hours per day.

Do you think that I am under a risk of having an heart attack/stroke/clot?

Do you think that somehow I can improve my condition and start to focus at actual stuff and if yes, how?

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Are you still taking drugs?

Smoking increases the heart rate and is damaging. If you were able to stop amoking it wouldn be helpful to you.

 

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I know how hard it is... I am right there with you... don’t give up! We have to be strong! We are ok! 

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So last september I took a fatburner called Synedrex. I have taken the old formula no problem synedrene, pre workout drank coffee on my off months and was totally fine worked out ECT. Well after I took that 1 fatburner in september I got shaky heavy palpitations my head felt cloudy I could hear my heart beating very hard and fast. I was taking to the ER as I honestly thought this was the end for me. Well I had my first panic attack and how terrible they are. Well after that I developed panic disorder I could be watching a movie / eating out/ exercising/watching tv / or sleeping and they would randomly come on I would have heart palpitations fewling like I was going to have a heart attack or stroke or brain aneurysm. I've been to the er 3x , ct scan, hormone tested, bloodwork, 2 EKG and all normal. So I went to a psychiatrist who basically told me that the fat burner was the lighter that lite my years of manageable anxiety into now panic disorder. Nothing is wtong with you via medical professionals and we tend to create psysical symptoms through our anxiety. Have you seen a psychiatrist? I dont think you will have a heart attack but you need to stop worrying that you have things bc you're creating anxiety for yourself.

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No. Never! Since that night I don't even want to hear about drugs! I will work on stopping the smokes, too. thankyou

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Seeing other 20 years old people enjoy their lives and having fun also pains me so much! Not that I cannot do anything, actually I can do every physical activity possible but I just don't feel like it, even if I were to do something I would not enjoy it..

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Did u had chest pain ?

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I used to, but nothing that has worried me much about chest pains, chest feels tightened sometimes whenever my heart beats faster though.

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I have been to a psychiatrist who just gave me medicine, sertraline 50 mg and xanax 0.25 mg. Though it still isn't gone How are you feeling lately?

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You are welcome. You sound brighter. I think you just need time and you will recover before you know it. Keep off the drugs and the smokes then eat a healthy diet. The Paelo is a good one .

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I would not even go there. It is normal to feel tight chested with increased heart arte, for extra reassurance get an exam with the doc. Smoking causes fast heart rate so....................

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Well I have had so many exams that I am even confused whether I need to do anything else?! Like that many ecgs that many echos, a stress test in which the cardiologist said that this would 100% show something and a holter monitoring, plus the other exams that I have gone through, spent an incredible amount of money on private hospitals/doctors. Should I check further?

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Its been a roller coaster. I stopped taking stimulants and alcohol. I was initially given serataline but seemed to increase my anxiety and lorazepam (ativan) which helps if I need it. So I was given lexapro did fine but after I increased to 10mg I started waking up in a panic hot rapid heart pacing around. So my doc took me off. So now I have an appt tues to see what my next step is. Its alot of trial and error with anxiety as our chemistry is different doing yoga and meditation does relax me though.

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I think it is only necessary to mention it to the dr. Reduce the number of cigarettes and do not drink any alcohol and see how you go from there.

​There is a point where one has to stop investigating and put it down to anxiety or the effects of drugs prescribed  or otherwise and move on . Diet is important and I do not know your height or weight. If smoking, not eating healthily or under or overweight then you can expect palpitations etc.

 

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I am 173 CM tall and weigh around 68 kilograms. Not overweight, do not think that I am underweight as well. I find my jaw and head hurting during the mornings cause I tend to clench my teeth during the night and have a really bad taste on my mouth coming from deep withing, no idea of relations though. 

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Have to write a quick e mail.

Sorry to ask such a personal question but re the bad taste  perhaps check this out with your dentist. He may be able to assist with the teeth grinding.

It is clear that you have anxiety as you grind your teeth in your sleep.

As before focus on stopping smoking etc.

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Yes try to remember it is just THOUGHTS, not REALITY.    You are letting your thoughts dictate to you when it should be the other way round.  You are not helpless in this, take control and each time you THINK something awful, keep saying to yourself - it is just a thought nothing more nothing less.  Banish them.  Anxiety creates physical symptoms from head to toe and then you get catastrophic thinking.   The brain is very clever at reinforcing these frightening feelings.   Try and do physical exercise this will raise the happy hormone and anyway will keep you healthy.   Treat these thoughts with disdain, you CAN be in charge of your mind.    Anxiety disorder is not set in stone and brains are surprisingly open to manipulation.   BANISH THE THOUGHT

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Dear Kiddo

I you are going to be OK. You are young and have lots of time to discover the good in you and your worthiness to be here and all the positive beautiful qualities in you. Check out the violet flame prayer by st germain it transmutes the negative into the positive. Find you spirit. It will help you overcome this stuff. Have you read any books relating to spirituality or energy medicine. Try the power of Now Eckhardt Tolle-

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Hi,  Everyone experiences anxiety at some point, it has the important job of protecting us, its so important that it takes over a lot of other functions. One of the ways it does this is by making us focus on things we believe represent a threat, we constantly look for them. So if we think a sensation in our body is a sign we are seriously ill, we constantly look for these sensations and monitor our bodies. It also prepares us for action, our muscle tone increases ready for immediate action and our heart rate increases to make more energy available. Its because our muscles are like coiled springs that people get the shakes, our muscles are held in tension and blood is diverted from the gut to our muscles. So people get all sorts of muscle pains virtually anywhere on the body, we become aware of our heart beat and experience palpitations we get butterflies in the stomach or feel sick or develop diarrhea. In fact if your already looking for physical symptoms you can be spoiled for choice.

You mention feeling let down and furious, why? at 20 you are likely to be very healthy, heart problems at that age are very rare, its also easy these days  to be pretty accurate in diagnosis. You've been checked for this and your fine so who's let you down? it sounds like people are trying to help and unfortunately it can take a while to find the best.

Its difficult to get out of the traps that anxiety sets for people, it is the main source of the symptoms that increase anxiety and it makes you doubt everything. The fact that it also saps the motivation to take action compounds the whole thing. People have given some good advice, keeping your general health up and avoiding things that produce their own symptoms like drugs can all help. I agree its not useful to do symptom checking but it can be useful to find out about anxiety and how it works. There are also a lot of free self help resources that can be useful but this can mean a lot of trail and error. The most effective types of help are often psychological CBT has the best results, in the UK we avoid sedatives like ativan as they can cause more problems than they solve, but a lot of antidepressants have a sedative action and they have fewer problems. I hope you find something that helps quickly anything that helps even in small ways, they can have quite big overall effects. The important thing is to keep at it, don't let it become the norm for you, that makes it harder to shift.  Best wishes.