All in my life just seems to fall apart that I can't do anything right. All my grades are not so well I can't get a job, I don't think I'll go to the college I want and I have to stay in the state I'm in. Aswell i cant get a girlfriend my peers presure me but all the girls I have felling for are in the closet gay or are straight and have boyfriends. Even if they don't have boyfriends they wouldn't want me. really want to kill myself but I can not just follow through and do it I have cut myself and not long ago I put a belt around my neck and pulled on it as hard as I can to fell what it might be like to hang myself. I just fell empty inside now and I have no motivation to go on when I know everything will go wrong. I don't know what to do help.
Hi Evan. I am so glad that you wrote to us. I hear your pain and struggle. Glad that you did not hurt yourself!!
It may not seem like it but there are answers. Could I ask how old you are and if you have ever had counseling. I have and it helped me very much. Depression is a very painful illness that I know from experience. Please know that if you are in the UK you can talk to the Samaritans and they are very kind and helpful
Please keep writing us. Diane.
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How old are you, you are lacking confidence in yourself and it is you who needs to become more outgoing,
Just try and talk to people, small talk, sport or what has been happening in class etc, eventually you will gain confidence and people will talk to you. and hopefully they will become friends
BOB
Hi Evan - you need to talk to a responsible adult (parents?) or a school counsellor. Self harm and suicidal ideation is a serious matter and needs to be addressed asap.