OCD and Depression ruining my new relationship and life

Mental health
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Hello guys hope alls well. My OCD and Depression has spiked again recently, I believe I have relationship OCD. 1 week ago I was happy and content with my life and relationship until the intrusive thoughts start, they make me think things like - do I love her ? And all junk like that. This really stresses me out and j think about it constantly, this then makes me depressed and then I feel emotionless, so I can't reassure myself by feeling my love for her because I feel nothing in general emotions right now. I have been on paroxetine for a while now and i believe that also has something to so with not feeling much emotion ! I feel like me a few weeks ago was a different person to me now.

I am currently using headspace for meditiaion.

Has anyone been through this who can advice me ?

I know I want to be with her it's just everything else stopping me being happy sad it will just happen in future relationships, so I want to get it sorted with my current partner because i want to get theough it with her and be with her.

Thankyou guys

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Sam I'm going through same thing , but I'm on sertraline , first it was relationship OCD telling me I must not love her etc .. then it moved on to harm OCD telling me I'm gonna turn a bad person and hurt her which scares me so much and makes me down depressed and not want to be here anymore , I've been going to counselling but it's expensive I'm trying head space to like you I was once happy and stuff but your body must get a build up then this happens , keep fighting mate we will make it ! ❤️

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It's the depression making you feel empty and emotionless. I get like that too. OCD makes you question everything. It's not true though. Its just like the depression it lies to us.

Good Luck🙌