My brain feels stuck! I’ve been on 50mg of sertraline for 7 weeks. Not gonna go up anytime soon because I have my wedding coming up and don’t want the start up side effects. But this thing happens to me often. I don’t have typical OCD content like harm or relationship stuff or anything. I’m in CBT so generally I am great at responding to those types of thoughts. Instead what happens is I get really in my head. I feel like I’m waiting for thoughts to pop up and not sure how to respond. I feel on the verge of panic right now. I’m wondering if anyone else gets this... is it possible this a lack of typical OCD type thoughts and that itself concerns my brain which is so used to scary content? I just feel like I can’t focus on anything til I accept this and I just keep battling with this discomfort. Not sure what to do!
Hi there, firstly, congratulations on your forthcoming wedding. I'm sorry you are battling and uncomfortable in your mind, I know how scary it can be. I personally dealt with my intrusive thoughts so having a "so what? It's no big deal" attitude. I would tell myself, it's just a result of me being tired or whatever is going on with me. I used to resist how I felt with all my might, which inevitably made me feel worse. You say you are just waiting for thoughts to come-don't! Or honestly have a "it doesn't matter attitude". They are only thoughts and although distressing, don't let it bother you. Even if you're not convinced just remind yourself of the truth. You have your wedding coming up, wonderful, yet stressful at the same time. I know you just want to feel OK and you will, believe me. Don't wait around for uncomfortable thoughts. Instead think about and draw on thoughts that make you happy and bring you comfort mentally. It's almost as though you are holding your breath and this is why you are feeling stuck. You are not stuck, you are free. You can breathe out! . Good luck for your wedding. You are marrying the love of your life. That must make you smile. Big hug from me, Donna xxx