Off for 2 months after 4 month treatment

I was on 150mg serfralin daily for bad social anxiety and and the 4th month tried to kill my self while being drunk and taking 30 50mg tabs, was on 150mg. It's now been 2 months and I feel depressed from the anxiety once again, I don't know what to do. Any advise? I have already visited my local mental health and they can't help... This social anxiety is makinging it so hard to do anything, I might become homeless cause I can't even attend the support meetings with the government!!!

I know I have to just seek help from my a walkin clinic, there's no doctors in my area available so can't get Ativan. Sucks.

Were you put back on sertraline?

I have felt the pain of wanting to end it all, the one thing that keeps me going is I have family support, do you? I know for me it's been training my brain to think differently, and it's not easy. Praying, and forgetting about past mistakes and living for today only , not tomorrow. I also think we are made to suffer to make us stronger. Are you taking sertraline now?