I started on sertraline 5 days ago after a period of about 6 months of on and off suicidal thoughts and moderate social phobia. I initially tried citalopram but I felt like I was goin crazy after one tablet.
Because citalopram had that wierd effect I decided to ask for a lower dosage of something else so I started off on 50mg sertaline 5 days ago. The side effects were barely noticable and so I've now upped the dosage to 100mg.
The first 3 days I was constantly tired but found it hard to sleep at night (which happened before I started the tablets anyway). I've been almost back to normal mood for the last 2 days which may just be the plecebo effect of taking the tablets.
The side effects are more noticable now but not unbearable - trippy feeling on and off for about 7 or 8 hours after taking the pills, mild headaches now and then which are cured with water and maybe the most annoying effect; I can't orgasm. boner is achievable
Hope this wasn't too boring. I'm going to update this later on to let you know what happenssssss next. oh the joy and excitement.
Ok 11 days in. Most side effects pretty much stopped a day or two before I last posted. I'm apparently very lucky!
Bizarrely I don't think I've been depressed since day 3. Beginning to take an interest in my life again and I'm semi-actively looking for a job which is very good. Maybe I'm just a sucker for the placebo effect or I'm just going through a good patch.
One 'side effect' still remains but has to be altered since last post:
Orgasm is now possible if a bit delayed (which is a plus anyway I guess). The only difference is that it comes on slow and is twice as intense as before - it is absolutely amazing!
I'm beginning to sound like a very cheesy advert for this drug
LATER
36 days in; 5 weeks and a day! Been feeling great since day 2; Still masturbating less but not as hard to reach orgasm.
For the first 2 weeks I didn't have any dreams then I had one week of dreams which were more like normal life than dreams in that they were fairly mundane and relating to what I'd done during the day.
I don't usually get these kind of dreams but since then I've been having 'normal' dreams.
Two nights ago I had an epic quest cartoon dream. Last night had a zombie dream including a shapeshifting god seeking to kill 'the one' who could wipe out the zombies which was awesome but scary/thrilling enough for me to wake up once or twice during.
Been actively looking for a job for the last 2 weeks
Caught some sticklebacks which I'm keeping in my garage; planning on making a pond or aquaponics system in my back garden and growing pumpkinseed fish to see if I can and to eat them. Very excited about it; I'm like a little kid. Really want to get a job so I can fund it.
Started volunteering at local national trust park as a gardener and I'm getting into the gym everyday with me mate.
Still have to arrange my return to uni and resits
My sister who unfortunately went through a very stressful time which caused a form of delusional psychosis which she almost slipped back into, is doing a lot better since I've been happier! This makes me VERY happy. I'm hoping things will only improve although I realise there's a chance things could go either way. Life being a rollercoaster and all
Next step is for my dosage of sertraline to be reassessed by my doctor after my second month of use. I suspect I'll be slowly 'weaned' off if I can take it and if things are still looking good by that point.
See ya
59 days in: 8 weeks and 3 days.
Ran out of medication yesterday so haven't had a pill in the last 48 hours ish. Woke up this morning at about half five after a wierd dream involving me being socially rejected and crying. Was on the brink of hallucinating when I woke up and was almost seeing patterns beginning to form which was interesting. Decided to stay up so I could ring the doctors when they opened to get an appointment.
Went back to sleep afterwards and had another wierd dream.
If you don't want to read about my dream/ nightmare, this is the end of the post for you!
It was about a demon who was a timelord and was gruesomely punishing a group of us. We had all, one by one (at night), decided for some reason to use this abandoned toilet in a run down area which was out of use. In order to use it you had to shovel all the excrement out of the way into the centre of the room and yet we all had a strange compulsion to come back and use the toilet again. No-one was talking
Eventually we realised it was a trap that a timelord demon had made in order to take us away to an abandoned school and torture us. He would only feed us rotting animals with maggots writhing around and had other torturous ideas. He'd use time travel to age the diseased animals he killed infront of us to bring them back to us all rotten and maggot ridden. He planned to kill some of us or all of us one by one as he judged who would die by criteria only known to him.
I was the first to be subjected to his decision about my life: He took us to the bottom of a road and lined us up in a line down the road. I was the first in the line facing uphill as a car with a harpoon strapped to the front came slowly rolling down the hill. Instead of rolling into me, it stopped to my side. It seemed I was out of luck though as a huge demon (another demon) with large, black eyes was inside pointing a gun at my neck. He pulled the trigger and chunks of my neck where blown off and I was killed.
I left my body and saw the scene; the demon laughing at my torn appart body. The timelord demon, however, had previously decided I should live and so the scene played out in reverse and as the moment was experienced again the black eyed demon only shot off the side of my neck and I survived. The black eyed demon was then mutilated infront of us by the timelord demon.
I was set free
I woke up