So earlier today I let go and let my anxiety and depression come and go as they please but I think I've suppressed them. I feel this right clenched fist in my stomach and this racing pulse but no panic attack I'm trying to let a panic attack happen but I can't now I'm in this feeling like to let go and have one. But I can't it won't come out!!! I'm so uncomfortable. Maybe it's the symptoms anxiety has left me? I can feel myself anxiety lingering but my brain won't let me have fear again. I feel scared yet I don't feel scared like where are my panic attacks? Where are they? Maybe my body expected to have one so my body symptoms are there? Idk
Okay so I think I might actually be having one yet my brain can't feel it or it's so numb I'm not aware of it.
Sometimes worrying about having an attack is worse than the attack itself. Compare it to desperately wanting to cry, but being unable to. Very frustrating and only creates tention. Try taking a brisk walk and sometimes you can shake the thoughts altogether. Sometimes it works as you become distracted by the change of location and sights and sounds around you.