On 40 mg of Citalopram for week and half

Treatment and medication
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Woke this morning and thought at last I feel almost human have been having a terrable time since mid July after losing my husband. My GP upped my dose from 20mg to 40mg just over a week ago. I have been sleeping most of the night now for a week, pains in my chest have gone, stomach churning has gone. The aggresion and suicidal thoughts have subsided, haven't self harmed for the past week and managed not to cry for two days on the trot. The tinnitus is a bit louder but I can put up with that. I can now begin to think straight and hopefully start sorting my life out. Just hope this lasts 

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Hi Tina. I am sorry for your loss. I was widowed a long time ago aged 29 so i understand some of what you are going through. You are doing so well considering you lost your husband in July. It sounds like the meds are working well. Bear in mind thou that you will still get good and bad days. Berevement is a cycle of emotions intial shock, acceptance and anger to name a few. Have you sought any counselling ( cruse ) is supposed to be a good one. Have you any support from family or friends? You are sounding very positive and that's great. If you need to ask anything you are welcome to pm me. I wish you well in your recovery.

Elizabeth. 

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Good luckTina...to are to be commended...

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Thank you Elizabeth, that must of been really hard being widowed at 29 at least we had spent nearly 36 years married. I know i will get good and bad days but the majority have been bad so today felt quite good. I see a councillor and keep in touch with our McMillan nurse who has been a godsend, my son lives just up the road. I have a few really good close friends. I've been doing exercise, going out walking, swimming to try and get rid of the excess energy and aggresion. Eveyone kept saying your doing all the right things but felt i wasn't getting anywhere. I was against taking medication but gave in. It has been a rough road but i suppose it was the right thing to do. 

Thanks for your kind words

Tina

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thank you x

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So glad you've got some light at the end of the tunnel.  At first it seems it'll never get easier, I'm really pleased for you that something is working and taking the sharp edges away.  I really hope it continues to get better and you'll find a way to cope with life in a nicer way.  good luck hon. xx

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Thanks Loxie this is the third time I've tried this as I kept getting an error message, it was driving me crazy, anyway. I returned home around 1.00 from a 3hour day at work, phased return, I did 2 hours 3 days last week. I was sat here crying, music blaring out trying to calm down, this system going wrong didn't help. I've just spent the last hiour looking through photos of my husband and the grandchildren which have made me smile. I know yesterdays feeling will come back, sooner rather than later. xx

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Cant think of anything to say to make it better but I'm thinking of you.  Big hug xx