So last night what happened that i laid down to watch some stuff on youtube and suddenly my heartbeat went up i thought it's anxiety and it subsided after a minute or so though i was terrified. Today what happened i went to get a haircut and after coming back i went to the bathroom for a bath. So before bathing i went to the toilet and as soon as i squatted (I have an Indian toilet cause i live in India ) my heartbeat suddenly went up i was naked and terrified i thought it will subside and i sat down on the stool in bath but when it didn't went i wrapped a towel around my waist and came out of my bathroom panicking My mom said that it will subside but i was panicking furiously and i started hyperventilating.(I am 20 M btw and i live with my parents ) My legs started getting numb and i started panicking more. We didn't even had a vehicle in home and even if i did the doctor wouldn't have treated me without having a covid test beforehand. i thought I was gonna die of heart attack. I was burping so much that i thought i am gonna puke. I asked my mom to call my dad and he said he will come home in 12 to 15 min which scared me more as you know more time means less time for me. My mom gave me half a tablet of clonazepam and i ate 1/2 of it.(essentially 1/4th of a full tablet) i was crying and i laid down in my bed. My father came after 10 minutes and he was so angry with me that he had to come from very far. H e scolded me that i have been doing this for the past 3 years but i just couldn't control myself. I again started crying. He gave me ranitidine ( aciloc ) for my burps. He said that since i had stopped my medications for depression and anxiety this had to happen one day. He gave me a lecture for half an hour how i am destroying my future by not being confident enough. I am writing this in the evening this attack happened to me in the afternoon and i am still having a heavy chest as well as mild pain. I don't know if i will be able to live a normal life again. i wish i could go back to three years prior and start again. Also i want to ask how do i stop my fear of getting a heart attack and dying. I constantly think about death and stuff. I think being too idle is also a cause for this.. I was taking paroxetine and amisulpride before stopping them and propanalol too but my psych told me to stop that as i was feeling fine then.
first of all, none of this is your fault. So please remember that. Panic and anxiety is an actual condition just like any other condition such as diabetes, low thyroid, high blood pressure, etc. there are people who are born with a predisposition to having panic and anxiety.
secondly, please know that any panic or any symptoms of anxiety or panic will not hurt you! I know how scary they feel but it’s mostly due to the adrenaline that is sent out during anxiety that causes all those symptoms. It will eventually wear off.
you will NOT have a heart attack or anything else serious from these panic attacks.
the main thing you need to do is calm down your mind as much as you can. I would also suggest visiting a counselor for support with us. They see patients with this every single day and they know how to help.
If you’re ever having another panic attack, go directly to YouTube and search for something called stop panic attack now. Then scroll down to one called don’t panic. It’s in black bold letters. Get comfortable in your room or wherever you can be alone and quiet. Then listen to this short talk on how to deal with the panic while you are having it. She talks you through it and it really works! You will feel way more calm.
the more you worry about anything, the more you will have panic symptoms and feel anxiety. You can learn how to manage this with the proper support which you definitely need now! I do hope you feel better. There are lots of anxiety meditations on YouTube that can relax you. Take care
Thanks for replying. yes i am better but still i am having a mild chest pain. I will talk about it to my college counsellor online. One of the main worry during this panic attack is that i can’t go to a doctor due to covid 19. Many doctors are refusing to see patients due to fear of getting infected.