One of those days...

Mental health
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Hi everyone, today is one of those days, dark days I like too call them. These dark moods/days that i have really scare me, no matter how hard I try to bring myself out of them I just can't, so I just ride them out until the storm has past basically. I have uncontrollable tears, my anxiety is through the roof, I have that weird fainty feeling, I just feel awful. I can't be in the same room as people because everyone is irritating me, and that time of the month is almost upon me and it makes me 1000x worse, I literally become a monster. These moods just drain me, and unnerve me a lot. My parents are worried sick when I go into these moods, I would never do anything to harm myself but sometimes the thought crosses my mind, which is worrying in itself. I've never had anything this bad before it feels like a never ending nightmare, whatever I do to try and help myself its never good enough. Yesterday was a really good day I had so much energy and was ready to conquer the world today I just want to hide from it. 😭😞 XxX

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Hi Arya, sorry to hear you're feeling bad today. We have good ones as well as not so good. Are you receiving treatment for your low mood?

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Thank you so much for your reply.

I picked up my meds the other day, but because of the bad reactions I had from a few different types of medication through out last year, I've unfortunately developed a little phobia about taking them.😞

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Meds can help but I've been told that talking therapies are much better and they are without bad side effects I guess. If you can be referred for counselling or cognitive behavioural therapy that would be much better for you if you have a phobia of medicines. The tablets they offer can all make you feel worse before they start kicking in... Is that what you mean by bad reaction?

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I've had side effects before but they made me literally bed bound, and I freaked out - its not normal... But yes that is what I meant. I see a councillor already she knows of my anxiety about taking medication. Xx

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Sorry I'm not making sense now 😂 I'm aware of side effects but when I say bad reaction I mean bad reaction, do you know what I mean? Like freaking out and being bed bound is not normal for me. I've had side effects before for 2 weeks but I was still able to function... That was when I was 18. Xx

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You're right being bed bound isn't right if that's a side effect of meds. I guess you need to find one that works for you if you're ready to try another type of antidepressant. It's great you're doing therapy! Perhaps your counsellor may help ease your anxieties about meds over time and you might have another go if you want to.X

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The meds that I have now, is fluoxetine, this was the one that did wonders for me, but because of the scares, I'm a little afraid. I think you're right, I think I need time to ease into them. 😊 Feeling a little more human again now also. Xx

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That's good and you're getting better by the sounds of it! We just need to hang in the there and take each day as it comes X

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Fluoxetine is fine. I'm on 40mg a day and no side effects. Not a cure all - still get down somwtimes. One odd effect which I've noticed over the years I've taken it is that it seems to take way one's ability to cry - actually physically produce tears - weird.