Hello, Title pretty much describes it all. I've been on disibility for the past 23 years or so for anxiety, depression and "social anxiety". The longer I've stayed at home all these years, the more difficult it is for me to go anywhere now. I do take Gabapentin for the past 9 months or so and it helps, but it's really an up and down ride because it makes you fly high, then crash by the time morning comes around again. Anyway, I'd like to exchange some emails with anyone who'd like too and talk about these things and anything else...Patrick
I’m very interested
Hey Patrick,
I got a anxiety disorder for 3 years now and I take meds; Fluoxetine 10mg and i got therapy 2 times a week; EMDR and cognitive behavioral therapy, helps for me a lot. Its getting better with me, but its not far where I want to be. I quited school, my job and lost tons of friends after my disorder kicked in. You need to have goals for in the future to keep yourself going and to be happy. My goals for now are; next year back to school, getting my car license, learning Japanese and I got a few more. Probably I do not gonna make my goals, but at least you need to try and trying make yourself proud.
A quote which helps me a lot is; Dont see your anxiety as a stop sign but as a direction indicator.
Goodluck from the netherlands
Hi Clarissa,
Are you on disibility for your mental health problems?
Hi Coto,
Netherlands, wow. I’m in the USA. Are you on disibility? I suppose they might not have or call it that over there. I draw and paint and have been quite a few years, but strangely, after about the first 5 years, i developed somehow that it CAUSES more anxiety. And a huge amount of aggitation and it persists throughout the following day, possibly two. I’ve been dealing with that the past 8 years or so. It’s a long story, but it’s not a good thing. I’m a perfectionist and i don’t know when to quit things and leave them alone, so you can see why this happens. I just have predisposed worry…anxiety, depression, and frustration always, so anything at all practically “tops” it off even more. I do go fishing a couple times a week, but that’s not easy for me because it’s a people thing and i have to face people around me there (their isn’t any private areas that are good…for the fishing). The most difficut part of that is just going past the entrance booth person to scan my window on my car pass (it’s a state park). As i approach in my car, i am thinking that same person is thinking “here comes that guy again” (because i think they see that i’m not too pleasant looking..anyway..I try constantly to cope.
I indeed dont know what you mean with disibility. Im curious what you mean with it. The longer you stay out of the circuit the harder it gets to get in sadly. Its a good thing that you have hobbies like drawing and painting, it keeps you busy and it clears your mind, for me it does anyway. Did you develop your social anxiety from things from the past? If so, i highly recommend EMDR. Look it up if you want to know what is, its has helped me a lot.
Disibility is when you are eligible to recieve payment from the government having any type of illness..physical or mental.
Yea, i know what you mean. Past week and half i stayed indoors and yesterday went fishing and it was real hard for me to do being around others. It’s hard to explain. My problem started like a big bang. Within 3 days. I never heard of anything like it anywhere. Basically, it was i would describe as “psycotic” shame. Sexual connotations on every level for many years. And I was paranoid beyond belief because the feeling i had of shame just oozed out of me. I was angry, depressed everything. That was almost 50 years ago and here i am…it’s still here, but not as bad, just different i’d say..more depression etc.
ah yeah we got something like that too but im only 19 years old and a ‘uitkering’ is for 21 year or older. 50 years is a very long time.. I hope you can find peace to life a happy life because you deserve it.