ordered by the court to have my home repossessed just 1 hr ago

Mental health
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Sadly the Reposession Order by the Court was held up by the Court today.

I now can say we are to be made homeless within weeks.

How to deal with this right now I am unsure

All I can say about the day in Court apart from it being a disapointing outcome, leaving me and my carer in such a diabilicle situation , I can say I have learned a little about how the law works and in my case how it is up to the judge to decide who is lying and who's story is believable.

When It comes to disability rights and the equality Act I will never undesrand why these are not included in part of the case when they have every righ to be in cases like mine.

I have lived in the UK for many years , I have had a council flat and 3 housing association flats when I was diagnosed HIV back in 1988.

I remain very unwell , I have access anxiety issues , and multiple other health issues

It is like the court does not make any acceptions for these issues and it all comes down to the day of how I portray my side of the story of course with the Barristers immense help.

But even this is not enough

I am sitting here with a raging head ach and in shock but no real signs of anxiety as yet.

My best mate and carer is deeply shocked and real worried.

Ay suggestions on offer or advice please share with me at this time.

PJ

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Oh what I don't believe it, I'm so sorry things ha e turned out this way, trying to think of organisations that may help, what about Shelter do they not have a legal obligation to help of British Legion or is that for ex servicemen only not sure, or Salvation Army there must be an answer to this mess, especially with your medical needs you surely would be vulnerable if made homeless I thought Shelter in particular would be obliged to do something.

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Hello Ozzie,  I am so shocked, unbelievable.  Can you appeal at all, not dealt with these sorts of cases, only victims of crime, thou this seems more like a victim of crime against humanity.  I really don't know what to say or suggest.  Speak with citizens advice bureau they will have a list of organisations that may be able to help.  I don't envy your predicament and it's so unfair.  I am so sorry.

Elizabeth.

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Sadly being chronicly ill and having been made so ill it affects mmental health os a person doesnt entitle you to not be thrown out of your property.

The best the judge could do was instead of give me and my carer 28 days we have 6 weeks to find alternative accomodation.

Just when Anxiety is becoming easier to manage in my life what this will do to me in the coming days is anyones idea.

I can only do my best to seek all the help and support from all those outside agencys like shelter to give me advice.

But we know how many people are living on the street , its a reality and it may soon be mine and my dear loving freind who is about to start his 3rd year of engineering machics degree.

He will finnish being a student late july.

So we have decided it is for him to worry about his eams and passing them so he can then start full time employment and its up to me to find help

Especially the temp help we are goiung to need to have a despoit and the upfront rent while I am on the higher rate and not a bad rate of Disability at all.

Its gonna be hard seeing how we are going to achieve all this

I need loads of prayers and support I think.

My back is killing me with thwe stress knots right now

Thanks for your kindness and support.

I live in Hope.

We are both not bad nor nasty guys.

But somethimes that doesnt matter to the court either

X

PJ

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no chance to appeal whatsoever

which is not what I was told we may do if things were to turn out like this

I have to find new strength and turn back to the suuport agencies that have been linked in to my health and housing issues

The justice system can be unfair and cruel.

Its shocking and I am not really taking it all in right now

X

Thanks for your response Elizabeth

I wrote a bit above to Lou 86.

My elderly parents  will be told tonight

They will be feeling very helpless I know them too well .

XXX

Hope is with me.

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Gosh I can hardly believe that you are going through all this ontop of everything else, this day and age it is absolutely disgusting to treat a vulnerable person in this way - to throw you out of your safe place when you need it more than ever is just utterly despicable. The only thing I can think of is to speak to Shelter, I'm sure they will be legally obliged to help you and maybe with deposits if you are thinking private landlord route and I know that can be a minefield itself, does your local council have a list of private landlords I wonder I know some do, or how about the local papers for private rentals- it all must be mind blowing for you at the moment ontop of other things you are dealing with its very distressing for you. I tend to have more faith in Shelter to help you in reality other than private landlords to be honest, could you find strength to co tact them when you feel able as you need time to take all this in and get your head round the situation so to speak - once the reality of it really sinks in then you can the first step to moving forward with this, if you talk to them then hopefully they can guide you in the right direction and get things moving forward and start to put all this behind you - slowly things will then start to be more positive and all this will be in the last, minute by minute all this will be moving behind you and you move forward to a more positive future, I really hope for the best for you now - perhaps if you feel ready tomorrow you could make a call before the weekend and talk to someone who can perhaps give you more hope and guidance in how to deal with this - you can't do this on your own you need back up, support and help and I'm sure it's out there for you Ozzie, - thinking of you 😉

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Lou you are a blessing mate and are so right about Shelter

I am registered with them and of course I will do everything that is pyhsically possible to not be left on the streets in my needs .

My flat mate and soul mate /freind is about to do his 3rd year final exams so this is just not good news for either of us.

We do need to find a new home .

if you hear anything do let ius know or know of any other organisations .

essentially I am going to have to find 6 weeks deposit, agent fees and then a months rent in advance

My head is spinning.

LOL

loads of muscle spasm right now in my back

am going to lay down for a few hours

I am sure I will be back .

Thanks

Hugs

PJ

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Ozzie don't think about deposits and heavy rentals right now, it's just too much to deal with at the moment ok - first things first you need to rest, so 7 seconds of breathing in and 5 seconds out which will help you relax, try to free your mind and body of all this stress - try to sleep and tell yourself there is help out there, and then tomorrow if you feel able contact Shelter and go from there........... Peace be with you, speak soon 💤

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Lou

I am hearing and going to act on all your advice

, my siste just phoned from Australia , I am going back to bed.]

I will start with my breathing and as I exhale I will allow all those emotional toxins to leave my body with each breath,

I will not think about rents and deposits I will only look at the posative side of things and feel the peace I am about to find in what will be a new home out there for me.

Away from what has been my prison and living hell for 4 long years.

I thanks you for spending your precious time and emotion on my needs right now

When I am sure you have several of your own.

but as I have said before in here something we are in here for different reasons.

And my reasons are to find hope and strength from others at this time and to see that Hope is still with me .

And you have again blessed me more than I could ask or expect.

Thanks

PJ

speak tomorrow hopefully

 

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If you are made homeless, don't the council hsve an obligation to find you somewhere to live? I'm not sure - ask citizens advice. Then speak to the council. Despite the stress of the situation you are in, try to stay calm when talking to them - the people are doing their best, but have rules they have to work to. This is often frustrating, however try to view it as a puzzle you are trying to work out with their help. Hope it works out ok.

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Thanks Barbara for your comments and desire to give us some direction.

we learned through the barrister that we could actually have problems being housed by the Council and it should be a lst resort.

I am going to speak to a number of Housing Organisations and the disabilities rights organizations , Ill be speaking to the HIV organizations and anyone else I can.

I am not the type to lay down and die.

Its hard to come to terms with and unfair how the court case was dealt with , there is nothing we can do to save our home no matter if I am unwell or not.

Sometimes we know that the las is an ass unto itself.

there were so many things we were denied talking about and at the end of the day the decision was made.

We remain in shock of course.

Losing your home is not something any of us can take lightly.

I am terrified ,lol

But then again its been 4 years of hell in a flat that has never been a home from day one when the neighbor began to interfere in our lives.

No matter what was said the truth was not accepted and those that ganged up on us who lied and now have exactly what they wanted leaves me cold .

I felt so sad for my best mate and carer he is showing signs of real stress and shock.

Its paralyzes your body.

I feel the knots and pain all over my back.

But again , its got to be sorted and someone has to take the rains .

I live and stand upright in Hope.

X

PJ

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You know I wouldnt care living in a caravan , any place is better than living in hell here.

It may be an option for a while

Finding someone with a large self contained caravan that we can park up in one of Londons caravan Parks.

I just learned there is one in Crystal Palace  and this is close to my freinds college.

Maybe we can find someone to rent us a caravan.

U never know..

Tks

Pj

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Morning Ozzie, hope you managed to get some rest through the night- was up myself until way past two am ( health anxiety ) and was looking for help for you - keep coming back to Shelter as your best bet although you probably know that, it looks like they can offer the best help above other organisations, the caravan or mobile home idea is good as well, sometimes on mobile home parks the site owner rents them out, not everybody can buy - is there any parks close to you that you could maybe ask about, failing that then contact Shelter asap. Today is another day Ozzie but not just another stressful day turn it into another positive day with maybe some hopeful results - yesterday is now in the past, good luck today 😉

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How's things Ozzie ? 😏

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having a pretty rough time mate

will try to keep myself together.

PJ

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Oh no - guessing you've had a rough day, so sorry . Hope tomorrow is better.

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Lou thats ok 

I am sure you know what rough is like.

its a tremmendous that your thoughts are constantly with us here.

My mate is suffering more than I am right now.

he is unable to sleep or rest, he needs to study , he is shoung signs of anxiety and has ulcers in his mouth so he is in pain to, all I can do is encourage him to tell all those negative thoughts in his head to leave and to replace them with the Hope That I am sticking to right now

We told 2 of our good neighbors what has happened and they are also shocked and upset for us.

Its going to take effort and time to establish what our optons are for housing.

Thanks again mate

PJ

 

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No Ozzie compared to what you are going through right now I have no idea what rough is, yes I've had some crap thrown at me in my time, spent my whole life looking for my father who deserted me when I was four, found him two years ago - he used me for everything he could and I was just used by him, he was lucky I found him as he was dying, he had cancer and I watched him die as I held his hand - it screwed me up big time, found out things after his death that were not nice, made me very ill, i ended up in hospital having a very big operation that I swear was caused by stress - found out so many things about my abandonment that were so awful lets just say he was not the "wonderful hero" i imagined he would be - it's a long boring story but its left me with health anxiety and panic attacks amongst other things but even through all this I still say I am a lucky person, I'm alive and still here, and so are you Ozzie, I know it doesn't help you me saying that, but what I mean is that whatever crap life throws at us life is still a precious gift and we must fight to survive, we are here for a reason and I do believe things will get better - you have a future and all this will get sorted, I thought I would never survive but I have and yes it's hard but we must go on as we must believe for a better tomorrow- I am sad you are suffering and I have no idea how you are feeling right now I can try to imagine, but would never judge or patronise anyone just feel their sadness and help them believe there is a better tomorrow there really truly is. Be strong friend.

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Dear Lou

Thank you again for caring and in particular sharing some of your story.

As i was reading it I began to feel my heart drop and am still shaking at the sadness of it all.

The only miricle was you found your dad and you sat with him and held his hand while he fell asleep forever, that to me is so amazing.

No matter how rotten he was and what he had done, in what you did was incredible and leaves me speechless, having had that privelege myself more than 200 times sitting with the dying as they pass from this life into the next is a very beautiful moment.

In your act , you showed humanity at its best , and that says so much more about who u are , and now I understand where your compassion for others comes from.

May I say that just late last year my mother sent me a letter , our relationship had been majorly scared for several years and there had been a lot of conflict.

The letter she sent me explained to me that during her pregnancy of carrying me , she never had a day in the 9 months where she didnt resent having me, she did not want me she explained in her letter , she was very angry at my father for him making her pregnant again and she went through her 9 months carrying me also very angy at him.

She felt somewhat responsible over all these years as she had seen me suffer through out my life with deoression and now years later with this severe anxiety, she wanted to say how she felt responsible after all these years for shat she had seen me as a child ,and teeenager go through.

By the time I was 19 I was so lost and confussed in my life I ran away from Australia and came over here .

I have not had much time to sought out my feelings about why suddenly my moter decides to write to me and tell me all this.

Its been shelved with all my other issues.

But what I can say is i hear and feel your pain, its not much different to mine and its obvious this is why we have so much compassion and time for others in pain today.

I need a cuppa as I just woke up here

Your messga ewas compelling to me.

Your amazing and yes you have been dished out so much like me.

You truly do have the capacity to understand me.

Thanks

PJ

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Hello Ozzie,  How are you feeling today?  I hope and pray that something better will turn up for you and your friend.  Keep hoping as without hope we have nothing.  I have been through some awful things and am now loosing my health but i live each day with new hope.  I hope you have renewed strength each day and pray for a better future for you.

Elizabeth.smile