Hi ladies
Well I'm out for a meal with my husband. Haven't done this for a while. I'm determined and I'm ok. A glass of wine in my hand to 🍷
Hi Michelle keep it up you be ok
Enjoy and have a good time. You deserve it!
Im so happy for you! Have a wonderful time
How lovely, have a glass for me x
Yah good for you ! I got to venture out today tooo had to find comfee clothes to wear after a TAH everything hurts my swelly belly good to get out but this heat has made me swell worse anyone else have this issue?????
Well it was a success in some ways but not others. I did have the meal and I must say it was lovely. I had two glasses of wine. I even stayed out 2 hours. So all that was an achievement. On the other hand I was not relaxed,my whole body felt strange. My head didn't feel like it was with me and I held a lot of pressure in my jaw and face. On the way back in the car I was so nauseous. I controlled the horrid feelings the best I can. I'm so fed up with trying to keep everything under control. I can't let myself go and forget the horrid things and panic. It's there even with just starting the beta blockers. Perhaps they have took a slight edge off and reduced my heart rate. I so want this to be over but I continue to try xx
I'm glad that the meal was good. It is hard when you are feeling that bad to enjoy what you should be able to enjoy. You give me hope, though, about continuing to try. xx
How are you coping with going out?
It depends. I'm single and getting into a stage where it's hard sometimes to be alone. When something goes really off the rails, like having this UTI, I feel like I'm on a deserted island. My family all live nearby, and I could certainly go spend more time with them, but their situation is chaotic and I find it stressful to be there. During the week, I usually mix up my commute a little - most days riding the bus, driving a few - but lately, I find it more reassuring to be on the bus so I'll have company. I've lived on my own for over 20 years and it's never been a major issue until now. Haven't shared with my family. My mom went through a phase in her peri where she absolutely could not be alone. I fear that's arriving for me.
I know it's so hard. Anytime you want to chat give me a shout. Take care xxx
Thanks, I appreciate that. xx
Give yourself lots of credit for going out and staying out for a couple of hours. That to me is success and a step in the right direction. Our minds are s powerful thing so going out when you are not feeling well is an accomplishment. I would continue to push yourself bit by bit cuz right now the mind is the only thing we can control. Our physical bodies not so much 👍
Thankyou for your reply. It's a constant battle isn't it? A day takes all of your energy and then when I go to bed I only have about 3 hours sleep. I must be so tired every night but I don't go or stay asleep. My whole body is tired now and buzzes all over. If I could sleep 6 or 7 hours it may help. I'm having cbt sessions,somehow I have to change my thoughts but they come in every second and my mind's in a tizz. It would be lovely to know how much longer this is going on xxx
Sorry rant over I had to get it off my chest xx
Yes, I am taking CBT sessions too. It is a struggle. Especially at night when all you want is a peaceful sleep. Take care.
Take care xx
That's a huge victory!!! Congrats!!! I agree with Jaime give yourself a pat on the back and concentrate on the positive step you took to go out. I think that's where the cbt comes in on focusing on that a lessening the "but..." part.
Progress not perfection.
Hey Michelle!! Good Girl!! That's great! Enjoy your time with your Hubby...and enjoy your wine!! Have one for me!
You did great hun, by making yourself go out with hubby & enjoying some good food & wine. Focus on that. Hopefully the beta blockers will help in the coming weeks. Sorry I got confused about your bp - it was low not high!! (I knew you'd had some abnormal readings I just got it the wrong end of the scale!)
I endorse what CC said - progress not perfection. Stick at Michelle & have a rant anytime you want. xxx
Thankyou. I went out for lunch and to Dunelm today amongst other things and was ok. A bit better day! Take care x