One thing I used to do in the morning when I got fed up of the circular argument in my head of should I go to work or call in sick. Going through reasons to call in sick etc. and hassle I would get from it versus the hassle of having to get moving was to tell my feet to move. This circumvented for a moment my mind going round and round and as long as I got up straightaway I was able to go into work. It sounds silly but it worked well for me! x
Well, to answer your last sentence, depression makes it difficult to do the things that you objectively know might help you. The therapist I was referred to by my GP (choosing one for myself would have cost too much) was located in a place that was tricky for me to get to, and some of the things which we discussed were hard to talk about. I ended up feeling like it wasn't helping and that I was just doomed to be a failure. Reading this makes me realise that it was depression creating negative thoughts about the counselling process not helping me enough, about my counsellor thinking I was an idiot, I just saw the whole thing as something else to be depressed about.
Did you use an anti dep to get better?