Heyy, so I'm currently studying on my second year of college. I study art bcs i love art and i thought it was my life, and I'd be doing what love in the future. Also i get to study in the best university in my country. All my life I always worry over little things like how my shirt was too short or how my friends were whispering and i thought they were talking about me, or how my teacher never choose me to answer a question because he thought i was too stupid. I never thought of it as a big thing, because the feeling comes and goes all the time. But as I grew up those feelings were somehow increasing into some unrealistic and unnecessary feelings. And it overwhelms me because it can come anytime. Like when I was having fun with my friend or chilling out with my boyfriend, even my family I can suddenly feel this feeling that i will dissapoint them and failed my life to the point where i can't make them proud. Also my mom is a demanding person about my future and always keeping track with things that I'm doing, and she knows exactly my developments and it also worry me if i do a wrong thing in the process. Next, i tend to see other people success over mine. Like how they have bright plans over them, or how they make experience for their cv and things like how people are better than me. I know that I worry over silly things and I should not make a big deal over it but i ignored it and i dont feel any better. Lately I'm so afraid of talking to anyone, bcs I'm afraid I'm not a good company. Then i failed many task bcs I keep telling myself what I'm doing is a trash. Now I often shut everyone out but i also cannot explain to anybody how I'm feeling, so people are questioning me rn but idk how to respond. Like my boyfrind is currently calling me every 5 minutes but I'm so afraid to pick up, bcs I don't know what to say or what to explain. Am I being over dramatic or is it normal?