I have had a difficult year battling depression caused by WRS. I was off work (teaching) for 5 months, worked hard at going back on a phased return but as my hours increased I found it hard. This was compounded by some very insensitive handling by some parents and my boss. The last day of term so bad I was plunged into a deep depression and had severe suicidal thoughts. I thought I was back to square one. Was this a major relapse?
After a very difficult weekend I emerged ok but I'm really struggling with fatigue. That I came through it much quicker I'm hoping is a sigh I'm not back to square one. Restless nights, tired in the morning and afternoon. I'm due to go on a big family holiday and I'm worried about being well enough. For the sake of my family I want to be well.
Thank you so much for sharing this story, it really feels good that there is support out there and you know we are not alone in dealing with this illness. I too am a teacher and for the past two years have been struggling with anxiety and depression.
Furthermore, I seldom go on vacation because I am so paranoid of things that could potentially happen to cause more stress and anxiety upon myself. this is totally out of character for me because depression was never an issue, I may have been moody, but as we know, depression itself is something totally different.
I started taking Lexapro about two years ago and, for the most part, it worked, but I did have some minor side effects so I took myself off of it, I was then put on Cymbalta, which made my life hell for a short period of time. About two weeks ago, I started taking 20 mg of Prozac, it worked like a miracle for the first three days and now, unfortunately, I feel like I am back to being down in the dumps. I am going to give the Prozac a little bit more time, but my next alternative is Viibryd ( if I spelled that correctly)
I am currently on summer break and I am already starting with the anxiety of going back, I had such a bad Lee year last year and the one prior that it literally scares me to go back and make myself more sick. On one hand I feel the job brings on some of the stress and depression for that I am considering a career change, but I am 37, and not sure where I would even turn in respect to a new line of work. Not sure what medications you have tried, but maybe that could facilitate your healing process. I truly feel your pain… Please keep me updated