Hi, I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and agoraphobia for like 3 years which ruined my whole life. Lost my entire life actually. I have left except my family which a few support me. I know it's time for a change. I'm going to live at my aunt for a while. Because I feel like I'm taking away so much control I feel very very bad lately. I was busy with schedule to build my life easily up again starting off with doing groceries with family, sleep rhythm and walking every day for 30 min+. A week ago I started getting a huge panic attack while doing groceries. My legs where shaking, my stomach felt boiled, dizzy and my heart was razing as hell. I felt I was going to die. Next day I tried it again and yet again it happened. This week I skipped a lot of walks and the ones I took where very anxious. A few hours ago I tried again doing groceries and again I felt the same. I'm sick and tired of this. I'm very familiar to panic attacks. Going to live at my aunt is a enormous step out of my comfort zone. I'm thinking a lot about it. I feel like I'm giving away every control that I have. I just feel very bad and I wanted to write this of my shoulders.
Hello,
I know exactly what you’re going through. I have panic attacks on a daily basis due to service. They’re really bad to make matters worse, I have a phobia about taking pills.
So I do my best to manage my condition naturally. But it’s so hard. It’s almost impossible to do anything. Like my body is vibrating and any loud noise will scare the life out of me… I absolutely hate it.
I wish I had some advice for you to help, but all I can do is drink alcohol, which helps, but I have to drink a lot. So…
I sincerely hope you feel better soon.
I’m sorry to hear that and I hope you will find something which is going to help you. I understand that alcohol is something what helps you calm and forget things. I can say it’s bad and all of that stuff, but if it worked for me I probably did I myself. But I don’t think it’s the long term solution and medication isn’t as well. I’ve a phobia (if you can call it like that) for everything which does affect my mind. Coffee, medicine, alcohol, drugs etc. increases my overall stress and panic attacks. I have to do everything naturally as well. I tried therapy for a long time, but it didn’t help me out. I felt like they didn’t understand me in the slightest. I suffered from domestic violence in my youth and it has affected my life a lot and who I am. I can relate to the loud noises as well and things like unexpected movements etc. Multiple bad episodes of drugs has kicked me in the situation where I’m in now. That’s why probably so afraid now of things that affect my mind. My anxiety has been more constant then actual panic attacks the most of the time, but I’m now in a situation where I experience many attacks. I believe structure is something I really lack in life, so hopefully it’s going to change my life in a good way. But first I’ve to go through a tough period. Even a car drive is a big thing for me now and I even don’t drive myself.
I wish you all the good luck and hopefully you find peace with yourself soon.